Rock-a-live

2009-07-01T04:47:00.000-07:00

hey, so the world is apparently still upside down with the recent passing of Mj. Well, it's actually bigger than I though it'd be..I mean I knew he was gonna be bigger when he's dead than when he's alive...

Yah so apparently he was very broke just before he died? Fact 101 jot it down.
Kay, so what's more important than Mj is my sleeping pattern! It's completely broken and upside down. Topsy turvy. Catastrophic. Hallelujah. Couldn't sleep til like 5 in the morning for the past 3 days.
Yeah buzzer.

On other headlines, RF made the qf of the wimbledon. And serena and venus made the sf. yawns.
lmfao.
was rooting for azarenka. Her "Achooo" grunt is somewhat intriguing.
Kay, gonna go.
"The end of Sukarno" is waiting to be read. pages wide open.

2009-06-27T09:39:00.001-07:00

hey , another update from a rather dull summer. I really wish I'm in Toronto right now...even if it's only for a few days..
Miss my guys out there ;p
What do u guys think of the new music? Fancy? hahaha. Been into joan jett lately! Oh, heard hat Twilight's K-stew is starring in a new movie portraying joan's life. That'd be interesting lol
uh, haven't done any work these past few days. Read a little of bio but nth much rellie.
Out wth IRish yesterday and with dylan later on at night.
Out with dylan again tonight.
We didn't really do anything these past few days..
okay well, I'm planning this barbecue thing but i'm gonna have to see who's gonna be in town...
and my limit's 10 people..lol not gonna be loads. this condo's really wowness.

Anywho, Bali soon! Can't wait for it. This means, clubs, booze , chicks and cigs! =)
ooooo awesome stufff. sOOOOO jess is gonna come back from Cali, hope she doesn't get swineeyyy. Heheh. i'm off.

xoXO

2009-06-25T21:49:00.001-07:00

Hey, summer here. Pretty boring stuff. So Mj died today. Yah, I don't know, I've just never been into his music, so I'm not really keen on the mourning stuff. Sorry if that offends anyone in a way...or another

Anyways, saw transformers two nights ago, it was pretty good. gonna see it again soon hahaha. lol. anyways, It's the summer, and I've done completely nothing. Yah, so so, Evanescence is almost dead! Lol.
Amy lee kicked everyone out of the band and then the former Evanescnece guys joined forces with guess who????

Carly Smithson from American Idol!
Hahah, awesome stuff. I've been promoting their new single like fuck. haha. go to their myspace to listen to their new single!
www.myspace.com/wearethefallen
yeah!
Their new name is the fallen.

sO So so, I've been considering which universities best suit my interest! I needa apply soon, right now york and university of toronto and ryerson stands on top. I know, those are considerably easy universities. Okay hopefull i get in. I love toronto and I can't think of living anywhere else right now.
I mean my dad wants me to go to university of Newcastle which is in Newcastle England. (nt australia)

lol lol.
Anyways, I'm gonna update soon. ttyl.

Uuuup. dayte.

2009-06-06T07:12:00.000-07:00

Hey, update finally. Went to ladakh like last month...and it was awesome! (except for the mountains, i kinda hate climbing mountains)
yah.
It's finally this time of the year again.
Where I have to actually say goodbye to some people?
KMC's leaving. =(. (Lauren and Kaylin already left), John and Kevin are leaving. So is trang and Daniel.
=(
Seriously, awesome ass friends.

Anyways, summer is coming up. Not in the mood for it. lol. So much fucking homework! What the hell is that! ..
going to bali in July. Before that, well just gonna do homework and do some community service...yah.
Let's not go too far into that.
I met some awesome people during the Ladakh trip. I'm still in touch with 2 of them. ha ha. yah, but their internet sucks during the winter/spring. so I'm gonna have to wait a long time for their reply. oh well, not really. summer is here haha.
monlam is a cool shit monk! XD
puncok, well haha, he's so cool. HAHA and funny.
I remember he pointed to the word, "FUCK"
and he was like.."do you like that"
AND IT WAS LIKE AWKWARD MOMENT. BAHAHAH. that's a good memory. lol.
yah, omg, miss emily and teri and marina (And catherine, heard you got a new bf?) lol. Oh well, I really wish i could visit you guys this summer but circumstances says no.

Oh, Bali, means club, means, drunken nights!
drunken nights without schoolmates= NO EMBARASSING MOMENTS.
lol. I got so drunk after prom, well I kinda embarassed myself. no surprise there.

2009-03-27T09:55:00.000-07:00

Hullo, it's been a while. Ib schedule's as rigid as before. Life's as gloomy as before. Perhaps even gloomier. Just like any other soil, the nutrients get used up and what we have is a dry, dry soil. 2009 started off great. Everything was in place. Life can't be perfect right?

As of now, dreadful is how I'd describe the state that I'm in. No, really not exaggerating.

I know, I know, emo post. But if you read and think it over, I'm not really complaining about anything. I'm just telling it like it is. School's a pain in the butt as the only thing I used to look forward to is no longer existent. Skipping has more or less become a routine.

Springbreak? A little better, more room to breathe. But that's all I can say about it.

Oh, and by the way, i have a confession. I don't have a principle. Life is principle-less. What I do is people assimilate their principles on me, and I gladly accept it. I have no stance. I don't stand for what I think is right. I stand for what I think people think is right.

now you know. =)

glad i posted this.

2009-01-20T06:59:00.000-08:00

HEYYYY. so now im kinda high on cofffeee. large ice cap from coffee bean. i know. tsk.
w.e. haha.
ok so yah, today DO NOT suck balls as I expected it to be. I broke up with Shanti sure. And sure i was sad. but only for like one minute. Because I remember it's AFTER EXAMS. AND I JUST WANNA HAVE FUN. GIRLFRIEND OR NO GIRLFRIEND STILL IS A CELEBRATION. AND FUCKKKK IM TURNING 17. lawls. okay so immm supper high now. sorzz.

Okay so the whole breaking up thing suck. idk what's the reason. not sure if i want to know. She's still coming to my party though. She says we can still be friends. I say yeah sure, come back to me in a few weeks. lawls. I need to process it, package and then it's ready for a whole new friendship.
Yeah, maybe it's shorter than a week b/c i've gone over this pattern so many times it should be a simple process. Shilpa says I'm like "GolgI Bodies" ...process and package..lol. ok sorry if you don't get it.

SOOOOO JELENA'S PLAYING TMR. I FINALLY GET TO SEE HER PLAY IN LIKE CENTURIEZZZ. its been such a long time and i really amm happpz to have this holidays. and JULIAN AND JASMIJN I LOVE THE PRESENT. party in 2 days! NO ALCOHOL! BOOO! (Or is there?) lols.

okkayxxcvvwdw2wwwwww/. So I've been diagnosed with whatever the hell that eye disease is called. the doctor says it should last for only like 5 days. so its whatevsx.

i suddenly am missing so many people right now. Okay i'm gonna dedicate this post to people i'm missing then.

Teri Marina Divy Emily Zack David Kirin Rochelle. Done. miss you all alot. done. hope to see you in the summaz. done. oh wait i forgot one name.
Irish. yeah sorry. lol. i promise we'll hang out soon.
OH. ONE MORE. Meita AKA mamet!
ohh ok last one...VINA! (come back soon!)

soooo

yesss. im gonna say this now.
im fine people.
peace.

2009-01-16T19:27:00.000-08:00

I know something's wrong.
ugh i'm so sick of repeating this pattern.
Abandonment? No No No...I don't think that's the right word.
Anyways, it hasn't happened yet.
I'm gonna give it one more go....
If it truly doesn't work it's not my fault....

december holiday

2009-01-08T10:57:00.000-08:00

It's 3am. i don't know what I'm doing. blogging i guess. just finished one and a half page of essay. :/
with my tiny handwritting thats probably 2 pages for you folks.
anywho, i'm really tired but i figured i havent done this in a while so there ya go updates. gonna summarise what ive been doing during the holidays

movies- went to see bedtime stories with nicholas, ben, ben and isaac.
went to see Seven pounds with helmi and danial.
went to see The day the earth stood still with dylan and eric.
Msn- been talking to shanti here and there whenever she's online.
been talking to dylan about shit. sorry can't write that here. new friendship i guess? haha.
been talking to kirin about games. haha. shit ive been losing this online games. time to step it up folks. Darwin finally put me to his full profile on facebook.

Swim- been swimming twice a week. not bad. :/

Planning my party- okkie this party isn't my idea. folk's idea. I don't really want one because it's too much of a hassle which is what's happening now. Hope people comes.

Studying- biology, history, math. those are the textbooks i've touched during the holidays. economics was forgotten underneath these hassle. whatever. big fucking deal.

Tv shows- Whole seasons of these shows have been watched. - 90210, greek, skins. smallville.

Shopping- new cap, new clothes( loads), new shades. sums it all up. and oh, new habit of buying ice caps. (actually it's an old habit but i substituted Tim Horton's with Starbucks)

Okay, i just wanna say I need a fucken ice cap aka ice cappucino if u don't know that already (doh)
hmppf. i need a pump. XD
trippie, okays see yah

ps-exams in a bit. ill update on how i did. :/ if i live through it.

2008-12-21T03:55:00.000-08:00

Hey guys! Just letting you know..PLEASE VOTE FOR SHIGGA SHAY!

he's a good friend of mine and he's an awesome rapper. If he gets enough vote he'll appear on channel 5.

http://ugc.mediacorptv.sg/LiveNLoadedDetail.aspx?campaign=livenloaded&Item_ID=UGC-4893&Album_ID=984#RockOn

His new song "still fly" is unbelievably awesome! listen to it!

www.myspace.com/shiggashay

2008-12-20T03:33:00.000-08:00

Where's everyone?
the holidays is where they are. am i the only one left here?
Not really in the mood to celebrate.
Won't be able to see her for three weeks.
Gotta start thinking of something else to distract.'

I'm angry with myself.

2008-12-10T04:05:00.000-08:00

Days. and. nights. pass. like. rains. and. sunshine. still. the. shadow. of. your. face. leaves. me. not.

2008-12-09T04:18:00.000-08:00

I.have.too.much.too.fullfill.for.a.lifetime.

2008-11-30T04:33:00.000-08:00

So this blog post is dedicated to shanti!
She means a lot to me now. =) <3
I'm glad I spent a lot of time with her this weekend. It's been awesome. hahaha. sorry i made you meet my parents...maybe it was a mistake? I don't know...=/
Saturday

went to julian's house to watch Casino royale and Vacancy. Both pretty old movies? Yeah. But i like em both. I wasn't paying attention so much to Casino Royale...We ordered pizzas...oh and it was me jasmijn julian and shanti...yeahhh julian's sister was home but she didn't watch the movies..too...gory? rofl.

Yeahh okay so shanti had to go home at 11 or something. sorry i always make you go back late and take a taxi these days! I really am sorry. If I could drive and have a car, i'd so give you a ride?

Sunday
Went to practice our cultural show dance in holland village (jonathan's house). Hmm we worked hard at it and now I think we're ready to kick some ass...woo hoo! performance this friday...i didn't really wanna perform but shanti pulled me in...so yeah....ugh now i have so much hw...better get back to it

2008-11-27T22:44:00.000-08:00

ughh im so bored now. In 5th period. I have a free now. Alone. Jessica went to watch movie with Kiki and I'm stranded here....I have to wait til 3.30 for cultural show practice...then badminton practice at 4.15. Well this week and every week else seem to be a freakin busy week. Ugh great. Okay so I'm looking forward to tommorow because it's movie night again with Jasmijn julian and this time Shanti. <>

2008-11-22T18:59:00.000-08:00

Hey....so okay This week has been great. Love her very much. to the max. :)
I got back some of my history papers...and I think I'm doing quite good? I got full marks in one of them. hahha. I'm proud of myself for that. I kind of failed my math test by 1 mark...hmmm. whatever...not really counted...I'm gonna work so hard for the exams coming in January! And I think I did good in my economic article analysis....so yeah hahaha.

I kind of flunked bio test too. I completely didn't study for it...I don't know I just didn't have the mood for it the night before...gah. :( Mandarin test, I did well! Hahaha. Yeah improved okay!
But oral...I kind of messed up bleh.
Okay so on Friday went out with Shanti. Went to watch Madagascar. Haha. Was so happy that night. I've been spending lots of time with her these days. Yeah..sometimes i forget she's only 14...Alright...okay so I'm supposed to go to the library last night but i was really awfully tired and needed sleep. Besides it was pouring hard. I didn't wanna get sick or wet. :( So I went home and slept. I spent the rest of the saturday night watching "rendition" at home....a good movie but I skipped some parts so I didn't really get the movie...

Prom on wednesday was good. I haven't seen so many of my friends in such a long time. And I got a warm welcome from them. I'm really happy to see meita and nicholas tay! hahaha. I miss them so much! oh and stella! So meita called me last night! I miss chatting with her for hours on the phone! I told her to download skype! hahaa. I really do miss her! She's going back to Indonesia on the 2nd of November so that leaves our hang out sessions to January! Right after my exams! Actually that's quite convenient for me! Cause that would be my birthday too! Can't believe I'm turning 17 in like 2 months. haha. :) I feel old now haha. Okay I really need to go to the library today...going with Julian..feel bad..I've been abandoning my friends quite a bit these few weeks. oh and kaylin's changing school. That really suck. Now I have almost no one...
Lauren's changing school too. ugh. This really suck. Maybe we'll have a frikkin huge goodbye party for Kay and Loony. I'm gonna miss them lots. mayne. serious. Now i have no one to talk to in 5th period but Jessica....=.=

hMM k. I gtg now. update more laterzzz

update!

2008-11-20T06:54:00.000-08:00

sorry it's been such a long time since i blogged! anyways, today like any other day of this week, i tried spending as much time as I could with Shanti? I love her a lot :)
Well for those of you who have a problem about us being together, just suck it up mofo. :)
i've been sleeping so late these days. but whatever. as long as i got coffee, i'll be aight. today was a torture. the school cafeteria ran out of coffeee and i was DEAD. LOL.

rrrrr =andom

2008-09-03T07:14:00.001-07:00

The randomest thing happened today! I was just standing alone (Kaylin went home, the korean guy was playing basketball)....and then a bunch of grade 10 girls just came to me and started gigling lol....
one of em just runs away....and then one of em told me that the one that was running away was actually wanting to talk to me lol...im like haha ok...never happened to me before...I didn't know them at all before today.....=.=
kay...haha random.....lol
yah so the girl talks...and i tried my best not to make it awkward?

Ah...kay...enough about randomness! I failed math today! grrr! Didn't study! I forgot to study some really important part of the unit test! wtf! Wasted leh! It's actually easy....haha
Oh yahhh I did bio assignment today...hopefully finish by tommorow..I still need to read the bio text book...til chapter 6....wow...very long LOL.....

My form teacher kept on pushing me to go for the cambodia trip...I'm like....ughhh i don't wanna go to cambodia! I wanna go to Ladakh since it's a once in a life time opportunity! But knowing the type of person I am, she already put my decision in doubt....hahaha...I'm very veryy not wise in decision making...and cannot consolidate any of my decisions!!! Lol.

Okkkies, today jelena won in the quarter final of the us open! so happy!!!!! now she's in the semis...she'll face elena dementieva! Hopefully Jj wins her first ever grandslam! That will soooo make my day! kay I'm really lacking some sleep....I think I need to close my eyes now! (closed....but still typing...)..........

goodnight people!~!!!!~

2008-09-01T07:10:00.000-07:00

Good day citizens of the Earth!!! =)
Another day. Wowza? I'm still here? I didn't burn out? Meh. Not really. It's soo much stuff! But hey, I think I can handle it. I just have to believe in myself right? Bleh, cliched sentence. W.E.
Today was a long day for me because mainly, it's the first day of the fasting month, meaning nooo coffee for me in the morning. As usual, being the forgetful person that I am, i forget to consume coffee. As a result, burnout in classes. It wasn't that bad, just, well, I want to avoid being sleepy in classes because I have sooo much to catch up on!

And today, after school, I'm supposed to wait til 6.30pm for the Ladakh trip meeting. Yet, I skipped it. Why? I had other commitments. I went to the Jurong Library to socialise with my primary school friends. Isn't that a good enough reason? Yeah, I didn't really learn much from the "group study" session but hey, others did, and I have to be considerable. I had fun definitely. =) credits to poh ling, jason and hidayah for shining a ray of light into this huge hole of nothingness.

Olrighty. So I talked to reynard for quite a while on msn tonight and well, I think he has some weird preferences...."don't like to watch tv"....."don't use myspace or facebook"...okay definitely very reynard de vries. He goes like..."are you fiersa from singapore"....
I'm like...yeah fiersa from singapore...the one you gave the wrong msn too...LOL....

Oh yah olright, so I broke my fast with a handful of sweet donuts! I love donuts!!!!! especially vanilla flavoured! High glycemic index! lol. okay, that's my bio project due tommorow morning! So I guess I better move on?

As I said, i don't have many friends in school. Sometimes i couldn't care less about it. But sometimes it questions my ability to socialize and how much of a loner I really am? But let's not forget the facts that I have really, a bunch of great friends outside of this crappy, snobbish, white-trash, good for nothing school. Sorry for the derogative comments, it's necessary.

Anywho, I'm out. really. catch you another time.

2008-08-30T08:34:00.000-07:00

Hey! Long time no post! Aight! sorry! I'm really bored now so I guess I'll post. Uhh, school has been crazy. Okay, maybe it's a bit of an overstatement but seriously.....yah I need to get accustomed to the bulky assignments and tedious learning process!!

Okay I'll be honest. I haven't befriended many people in school and I'm not ashamed to admit that I'm currently probably labelled a newbie or loser in the school. W.E. I know I have friends outside school and that's the only thing that matters. But that kinda make me miss you guys in canada even more. Yah i really do miss canada. There are plans to go back there next year but it ain't certain at all.

Right, so for extra curricular act., hmm badminton and art club? Yah. i know lame. But I have to join something and I love art! Kay, friday was teacher's day....didn't really go to my old primary school. Just went to see my old friends. We went out for dinner/hung out in arcade, played pool. I had lots of fun! We tried to go see a movie but they all sucked so we didn't even bother. Anyways, yah, people like hidayah, irish, nachi, howard, wei yang, kapilan, jason hansen hui ling, mei hua, kim gheok and many others came. been such a long time since i got in touch with them? it's incredible.

Right so yah, david finally came online last week. for a few minutes. gahhh i hate you. lol
he claims he has summer school. I don't buy that man....
anyways, this week, is a good week. i failed 2 bio test. But I'm really happy because yea, I work harder now. I'm getting used to the crappy stuff. I'm getting used to the long hours in school. And the sense of loneliness in school! Lol jks. i have friends!! even tho they're numbered. whatever, I'm a late boomer. :p

School starts soon in canada! Just wanna wish goodluck to marina teri and divy and emily back in canada!!!! know you're all gonna do just fine!!!!!
big brother finale coming soon!!! Keesha is in the final 5! But whoops, she's on the block this week! hope she can pull something off! Because no way no way, I want to see keesha gone before the finale!

whoops, okay. i gotta go read oedipus for my english literature! alright, duhm duhm duhm! I'm out..

updatez

2008-08-08T23:50:00.000-07:00

hmm...new song on my blog...nice?
The title of the song is "She could be you". It's from the show Kyle XY......
Time pass by so fast...yesterday I was a month away from school....but yesterday was yesterday...I can never bring it back to the present.

Apparently, if you haven't noticed I've been totally obsessed with the show Kyle xy! ...Unfortunately the 3rd season's not coming till next year. just my luck. Anyways, this song is playing over and over in my head. Can't get it out...help?

I didn't do that many stuff this week. Monday- went to meet Nachi and Irish in library...she looks the same....

Tuesday- mom's bday
Wed-Physiotherapy
Thurs-Went out with Irish to Marina Square to eat sushi....
Friday- Played table tennis with Nachi/ watched opening of olympics...
Today---> Nothing. People asked me to go out but well...I don't know...haha maybe i want some alone time?
Tommorow----> nothing in my agenda...
Monday- School orientation, physiotherapy
Tuesday----->School starts......

Okay then...baxk to my boring life.

=(

2008-07-29T03:29:00.000-07:00

Ugh this stinks. This person doesn't ever reply to me. I miss this person loads. I wish this person would just reply my messages.....The only reason I didn't want to leave canada was you...why can't you just not reply to me? I get it I get it...you hate me for leaving...but I'm sorry I can't help it!!!!
I hate you for not talking to me.....

2008-07-21T05:05:00.000-07:00

hey....

I just finished reading the second book of twilight- new moon. it's really good! but a huge chunk got a littler boring....nonetheless, it was pretty awesome.

I was really intrigued at how Bella's life took a turn for the recession period....mhmmm haha emo!

Aight...Anyways, nothing much from me...just hung out with yeewen and some others today....they were wearing sch uniform so cannot go arcade...lame...hahaha whatever..at least i get to spend time with a friend i haven't hung out with in such a long long time! Me and yeewen agreed to go back for teacher's day....to our former primary school....mhmmmm gonna be interesting..see if anyone recognises me....

Anyways, i gotta go..playing online game! haha. bored =.=

I'll take a sentence from twilight.

"the clock tolled again, and the sun beat down from the exact center of the sky."

2008-07-18T10:05:00.000-07:00

Haha wow. I'm so addicted to this book. Twilight. I can't believe that divy marina stella and meita wasn't being ...too exaggerated with the book....
It starts slow but yah it gets the message into us. We get involved with Bella's life and stuff. Okay, so this week, I did almost nothing? Utterly nothing. Sadly, it's my life. When I look in the mirror i see a sombre looking boy who has bags under his eyes! yea I've been sleeping quite late these past few days...past the 3am mark usually....
mhmmm it's got nothin to do with the fact that I did nothing in the day, thus my body becomes restless at night....or maybe it has? Who knows for sure.

Anyhow, I went out with Irish, Meitze, kim and sean today....so yah they're quite fun...never hung out with meitze before but she seems nice...so yea i was expecting to see a movie but ya know as usual....they don't want to....

okay so im really tired now...i dont actually feel like blogging....ima go do something else then...see ya in a bit.

Love hurts by incubus

2008-07-15T04:01:00.000-07:00

Tonight we drink to youth
And holding fast the truth
Don't want to lose what I had as a boy
My heart still has a beat
But love is now a feat
As common as a cold day in L.A.

Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive

I'm fettered and abused
Stand naked and accused
Should I surface, this one-man submarine?
I only want the truth!
So tonight we drink to youth!
I'll never lose what I had as a boy

Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive

Without love I won't survive

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive

Love hurts, ohhh-oh ohh
Love hurts
Without love I won't survive
Love hurts la-la-la-la-la-la oh
Love hurts
Without love I won't survive

2008-07-13T06:48:00.000-07:00

Hey! Okay haven't blogged for a while. sorry lazy.
On friday I went out with Irish around 6.30pm..I know it's late but I was only free after 6. So, we went to Tiongbahru, just a little change of venue, because I got really bored with cineleisure. We went to Mcdonalds and chat and Irish taught me a little Mandarin just to get me starting on my new and upcoming Mandarin course in High school. It was so nice of her! Thanks Irish!

Oh and then we went to Cineleisure because mhmm let me guess...I wanted to play table hockey! I know I'm so addicted to it! It's scary how I'm addicted to it! i'm so good at it! Hahah. I feel like asking strangers to play with me and beat the heck out of them. But no, haha, my conscience get the best of me.

Okay okay, so I beat the crap out of Irish, and then we took some pictures....which end up mostly on facebook...but here are some..
So on saturday, just went to some lame party. and then today, I was on skype the whole day with kirin, alyssa and brit. haha. alyssa has got a hot voice!!!! I wanted for her so bad to do a britney spears impersonation! But I don't think she was up for it. Anyways, after that I went to swim and then I went to Cine to get some food and popcorns for the movie night at home later!
yah i ended up watching hellboy 1 at home. ahhaha. good enough to spend my weekend.

ANywho, i gotta go.

2008-07-10T02:47:00.000-07:00

lol canadian idol results are up! theo made it! yay theo!
haha
here's his latest performance!!! theo made it to the top 10! He's so so so good!!!!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=F76rysTCgrg

hahah be sure to watch it!!!

ANyways, yea I feel like making another poem hahaha

I'll walk over mountains,
if that's okay with you.
I'll penetrate through the ravaging wind,
if that's okay with you.

The subtle words,
may not be enough;
but your delirious smile;
is enough to split mountains,

I envy the cloud,
for it radiates your warmth,
through the albedo effect;
I envy the sun,
for it's able to glare at you.

2008-07-09T07:20:00.000-07:00

Smile.
Fake and sinister,
Smile,
bright, luminous.
Smile,
impenetrable, mysterious.
Smile,
fake or not,
still a smile!!!

Rain, dropping hard,
on my window pain,
washes away my sanity.
the cold refers not to the atmosphere
but the heart in me.

Water droplets brushes against my skin
cold and wet, drowning my ferriswheel
the one cycling round my heart,
my stony icy heart.

random

2008-07-08T18:47:00.001-07:00

hahah today is erik day!!!!
dedicated to erikkk!!!! erik erik erik! lol lol ok i sound crazy!
ERIK IS THE GREATEST THING ALIVE SINCE PANDA BEAR!
long live erik! babster :p

.....

2008-07-06T07:11:00.000-07:00

Hahah wow. okay, today was super hot. (I seem to be repetitive but please put up with me.) Mhmm, woke up at 8.30, to the ringing sound of my new cell phone! (I still can't believe i have a new cell phone) :o haha. Yeah, takes time to realize everything.
Anyways, I was up early and got on the computer for quite some time, checked some mails, and no fucking mails from that lady in my school. I contacted her regarding the courses I will be taking next semester and she didn't even take the time to reply my mails. Mhmmmm interesting. Can't say that I'm all smiley about that...

But I guess I'll have to call them up one day. Anyways, yeah, the real reason to wake up so early in the morning was because IRA was here in Singapore! for a one day transit! It's been such a long time since I've really hung out with Indonesians. I just realized how much I miss exchanging words in my mother tounge....hahaha. (to friends) yeah haha. So, I took a little stroll early in the morning, along Orchard road....(the maids were up and about the streets cause it was a sunday).....yeah I waited for Vina for almost an hour...How very considerate of her.....right. Yeah, by the time we arrived in San's house it was like 11......and San was calling for the fourth time when we were in the cab.....

Yeah, so I met some new people today and yeah they're all cool. Errm I don't know how to spell her name...Oliv? haha okay yeah she's nice and me, ira, vina, oliv and san went out to Orchard...we ate in Taka before eventually going to es teler... (i knew we would end up there somehow even though we're full). yeah. San and Vina bought a donut cake for Ira....celebrated her belated birthday. hahaha forced her to choke on the food...haha rofl.

Okay, so many things happened in such a short time. How can I word everything right? Ficky met us in es teler? and then we went to take a neoprint (wow again....i wonder when the girls get tired of this lol ) okay so yea then we went to play pool? .......i kinda sucked...but was much better and put away more balls.... lol. From retard to semi-retard. How wonderful.

I got home and jumped into the pool! yeah it was that hot. .....

reunion...

2008-07-05T04:13:00.001-07:00

Hey! yesterday was so fun! I'm glad to know my friends haven't changed at all! AT ALL! well, they grew taller but other than that nah. Jeevan's beard grew thicker (much thicker) and helmi grew taller and even more of a copy-cat. he has been copying my hair style since sec 1! lol lol. jks!

Sumithra is still the same! Kimberly probably changed the most? In a very good way! She is also now more open and friendly! Happy for you kim! Oh anyways, yeah, I came to school at 3.30....and saw some people.....well many people had to stay for class. so i just said hi and chatted for a while to some people.

Yeah I didn't hang out with Irish though...dunno she had something on. so yeah didn't see her much for that day..just saw her for a few minutes...and damn i forgot to hang out with a few people! I didn't even say hi to aryani! lol sorry aryani! and yea should have said hi to more people....well at least i got a few people's number.

After meeting some people in school, me, danial, varun and shao wei went to mcd for lunch while we waited for jeevan and the rests' class to finish....mhmm I still can't get over how much I missed singapore mcd! hahaha toronto mcd kinda sucked....lol. yah we pretty much talked crap and ate junk for about an hour....haha danial still the same old danial.....shao wei....yah still the same...varun...same too....everyone said my voice changed? I'm like wtf? It's always been this deep! rofl.

Yeah an hour later we were joined by people like jeevan, nicholas tay, gavin, varun, kim, sumithra, meita, stella, markus, ben teong, ben chong, yuh kae, vina and yeah that's pretty much it. talked for a bit and then most people left. hahaha left with like 8 of us. so the 8 of us talked and ate and drink and talked and chat and blah til like 7....lolll when it's almost dark...I can't say i didn't have fun because i did~! thanks to all the people who made it so fun! Missed you all and I'm sure this would be a great year! goodluck in your o lvls!!!!!

Oh and today, I was supposed to go out with vina and the indonesians but she delayed it to tommorow...when ira comes back to singapore. Yeah! missed them! I tried gathering some people to go to the movies but they're not free.....texted and talked to gavin all day...lol he kept me company through my new cell phone....
lol oh yah my new cell phone is so sick! love it! haha. i can't stop downloading tunes! =)
right now my ringtone is corazones by daddy yankee :p
oh yah gavin yah i still use limewire too! hahaha and no, no police came to my door!
I'm gonna go out tommorow with the indonesians and then on monday it will be with the queenswayans!!!! We're gonna watch a movie! Can't watch "wanted" because gavin is under age....nvm that's not the point tho! I don't mind watching any movie! As long as it's not by myself! lame....

.....great whole bunch of nothing.

2008-07-03T01:11:00.000-07:00

okay I'm really bored! lol. Tonight is the women's semi-final matches for wimbledon. rooting for venus and zheng! lol. anyways, gah it's so hot. i cannot go out and come back into the house without melting on the front door!

Yeah yeah....anyways, tommorow i think I'm going to queensway to visit my old friends and see if I can catch up on them...I really hope to see jeevan, yeewen danial, helmi sumithra and others....I haven't seen them in such a long time.....Today I didn't really do anything except read harry potter and go take a little walk to orchard...again. yeah I know under the hot sun. what the fuck was I thinking. sigh. I have to get used to this heat...it's pretty unbearable for me now but lol gotta get used to it!

Errm. Anyhow, I need some help in math. Haha. I'm gonna take grade 12 math. so who's willing to help me out! It's under the IB course..so it's gonna be harder than usual...wow I need to start getting ahead.......loll if I can graduate under the ib COURSE that means i dunno i think i will get priority in universities in canada? lol. nice right. I wanna go to york or ryerson. so yeah. Same university as david and some of my friends!

About david...mhmm haven't talked to him for a while...he hasn't been on msn for a long time...I wish he'd just get a freaking facebook! The last time I met hi I treated him to a kfc meal...lol ok lame. haha and he was in a hurry for a job interview...not really much time for a proper goodbye? whatever lol...

so I'm starting to miss some people already...I miss hanging out with marina and teri...sigh...i wonder what they're doing this whole summer. Oh right, they're going to mexico. Ah. Nice. While I'm stuck here reading stupid harry potter. JK Divy! I really appreciate u giving me that harry potter book! It really means a lot to me! I'm reading it enthusiastically now. :p

As for my new school...i heard there's not gonna be much chinese in it? most of them are gonna be from canada? cos it's a canadian international school well duh. Hope it's gonna be cool. Because if it's gonna be another bronte well I might as well have stayed in bronte...together with emily zach...marina and teri....i miss going to tim horton's with them! lol:p
they don't have bagels here. sad.......anyways...i think my boredom is over....i wanna do something now. see ya

1st and 2nd of july...

2008-07-02T01:53:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, on Tuesday, I went to Cineleisure with Irish...then met up with hanyue and yongqiong...they haven't changed at all....Irish haven't changed either....in a way I'm glad yes. anyways, yah, I treated Irish to a dessert since it was a happy day for me. =)
Han yue and yongqiong took quite a while to come...We already purposely ate slowly to wait for them lols. And then we met them in heeren. So yea it was pretty long wait...anyways, we went to buy the tickets and saw Irish's friend...donno what's his name. Aaron? Yah he pops out of nowhere...funny in a way lol. I had a stomach upset...needed the more than ever...
rofl.

Went to buy popcorns, and we watched "Get Smart". It was a pretty stupid movie...one of those corny agents movie... the jokes were lame...lol haha while we were there I put my legs up on the seat and Hanyue was like "hey that's rude!" I'm like wtf? lol

Okay, so yeah, summarizing this is kinda difficult. lol. Yeah. We waited for the bus, and while we did that, Irish camwhored...lol still waiting for that picture to pop out on the net....
Okay yeah I had to leave her in the bus stop because my stomach upset was getting out of hand? i KNOW it's embarassing lol. I basically ran home to poop. haha.

Okay, so today I went to the Canadian International School. OKay. It wasn't what I expected....The building was very run-down and looked nothing like an international school....I'm wondering why we pay $10,000 for this....mhmm. Anyhow, I got an automatic entry to the school because my previous school's principal wrote an e-mail to this school recommending me. haha. lol. see there are easy ways to do this! haha. Anyways, I can't do the ib program, which is more like advanced learning because I've learnt absolutely no french whatsoever and you cannot expect me to take on grade 11 french. lols. yeah. So I'm taking the normal stream...Good enough for me. Same benefits whatsoever. I still plan to go to Ryerson or York. Toronto=). haha. Errm Moving a lot is hard for me. What I had to go through is almost inexplicable but obviously life goes on. I can't have any say in that. I'm just gonna freaking graduate from this school and hopefully I go to a Canadian University...

errm. yah so now I'm just doing nothing...waiting for the tennis match that is about to come up at 8pm...oh wait...that's roger federer's match. nahh I'll pass. He's very boring...I wanna watch Nadal's match against Murray. And oh yah! I wanna congratulate Zheng Jie for reaching the semi-finals of Wimbledon!!! nice job!! First Asian woman to do so in like more than 10 years? nice. Anyways, I'm beat. I wanna read something light and then take a nap. check back in later.

the leaving note!

2008-06-25T19:49:00.000-07:00

hi people! I'm coming back to singapore this sunday! How exciting is that? No I'm not being sarcastic! It's been a heck of year but there's always an end to it. I've learnt so many things living in Canada and sure I've enjoyed my time here! It's been crazy and it definitely changes me as a person in whole. I'd like to say a quick thanks to a few people who made my stay here in canada wonderful incredible fantamazing!

Marina (te quiero!), teri, divy, emily, zack, kingsley, rochelle, ana, sergio and maybe ricardo (lol jk). Oh yah catherine! I'll miss you a lot and we'll keep in touch!!
Olright as for the next part, I don't think I want to interfere your o lvl studying schedules, so don't pick me up in the airport! YOu guys have much better things to do! We all can hang out some other time!

I'll be going to a canadian international school and not a local school...mainly because I've been used to the curriculum in here...it's pretty cool. I get to learn USEFUL stuff. No I'm not being sarcastic lol! I actually do love the things they teach! I love canadian history and well the science is very interesting!

Oh yearbook, I haven't gotten everyone's signatures...so that's kind of a problem...Everything's a rush now. I have to see so many people...thursday- babysitting with teri and marina....and also the revelation of the exam results...whereas on friday...it's more tumultuous...I need to go see david cos i haven't seen him in a while! And then at night maybe I'm going to karaoke with the rest of the school...and on saturday...well I think I'm gonna spend the rest of my mornning packing and after that I'm gonna meet ryan cos i haven't seen him in a while too! olright yah so I hope everyone's a having a fun summer! I KNOW MINE'S GONNA BE SO FUN! (Sarcastic)

Okay, remember! I'm coming back on sunday!!!! (that means i'm arriving on sunday...)

irish's request!

2008-05-30T11:14:00.000-07:00

Alright, due to requests, i'll keep this blog alive! Irish, see I'm writting on it now! Haha. There's been much stuff happening and I don't know why I find myself missing so many people back home in Singapore. Previously, tbh, I didn't miss you guys so much. I guess the magnitude of being so far away from home for so long, just falls down on me. I'm finally coming back to singapore in june! How exciting will that be (I'm not being sarcastic)!

Oh irish, yes, I'll get your hoodie! And I'll bring some gifts too for the others! I'll be back around like late june or early july. I don't know. it depends on how long I stay in england....I'll be stopping over in england for a while. and then going back to singapore.

Prom is coming! And i haven't picked a suit to wear....arrghhhh headache! Anyways, it will be my first prom and most probably last. =(. It will be rochelle's last night in canada too! I'll miss her a lot. She's been loud and annoying and stuff but she's a really good and understanding friend....she has one hell of a personality and in many ways, she inspire me. I'll be missing marina and teri too! They've been bringing the darker side of me this whole time. And i HAVE TO THANK them for showing me the real teen life! Even though I didn't fully transform into one of them, i still changed a lot......They're really great friends and i would never trade them for anything....well maybe a car....jks

haha so there'll be an afterparty in prom, and I'm not coming bcos my parents will be watching the time and standing by the front door, waiting to see if i come home in time. ugh i know sucks. hey at least i get to go to the prom! The ticket was $35 and i alr bought it like 2 weeks ago.

Now about science...my mark has been plummetting down like a rocket falling from the frikkin sky.....I can't believe how lazy i got....meita would be so ashamed of me...=(( haha mamet! I'm no longer a perfectionist! Aight, so other than that, I'll be catching you guys back in singapore! talk to you later!

movies on sunday

2008-04-20T19:01:00.000-07:00

Quick postie.......It's kinda of a good day. went out to square one with marina...we were supposed to go to lakeshore but teri and ana bailed...so okay we went to square one...ate at the foodcourt, went around to see summer clothings....i really need a new pair of shoes and short pants!!!
Okay I didn't buy anything today, cos i wa sin a hurry...the shop was closing...so we went to the movies in Famous players. The weather was beautiful today. It wasn't hot at all and it wasn't that cold. I could finally wear my short pants....lol okay so we went to see the movie called "Forbidden Kingdom"....It was whacky but I guess it's good. Not that bad. I like some of the fighting scenes....err yea overall things were fine today....we had to wait really long for the bus....damn bus...okay okay so I got to go now. i'll post another one tommorow.

BACK!

2008-04-19T17:00:00.000-07:00

Wow! It's been a long while since i POSTED! darn it! I mean I haven't posted in like what? 3 months? I've had this macbook for a while now and i'm really used to it. It's kind of dead this blog? But I'm gonna bring it back from the dead!

My stay in Canada is coming to an end! And i must decide what i really wanna do! i HAVE no idea what i wanna do after high school! Oh i've been slacking a little since last semester....I don't know it's not just one thing. It's everything. I just wanna enjoy my stay here in canada and most liekly my high school years!

Have i changed? not really i don't think so....maybe. I still do sing like i always doo...hehehe. And i MISS A LOT OF people from singapore!!!!! olrite.....as for music sense...I'm still the same. i listen to rock, and now I'm a bit more versatile. I listen to more r&b altho still not much!!!! Movies wise? hahaha my friends here r great! they always watch movies every weekend! not like in singapore! boo. =(.
hahaha. okay i'm kinda bored. and watching the spelling bee. Canada's spelling bee! I'M SO LAME!!!!

hahaha okay loser out now

gEEZ, Exams, done. Now what?

2008-01-29T19:40:00.000-08:00

It's the holidays again! New Semester is coming up..I was looking forward to it. Up til I remember that Divy Emily and Zach aren't in any of my classes. So isn't Marina..wow. I'm gonna miss them lots. Teri is in my classes i think yeh. drama, history computer science and science. Wow. Everything seems to be going so fast. I've had so much fun this semester. The most fun I've ever had in school. Seriously, studying in Canada couldn't be any more fun. I cherish every single moment I'm here...

Well..it's been a while since i've come here. So maybe a little update? I just turned 16, and got a new macbook as I said on the previous post. This macbook is amazing. Yeah sure it has many downsides to it. but really, its amazing. The quality couldn't be any higher. Things are so much quicker now! I don't have to wait 20min for my computer to load. Lol don't u love my exaggerations?

I got a seether cd from divy. Which I'm really grateful for. Thanks Divy. Exams was really okay. I didn't do amazing. i didn't screw up too. Maybe I'll regret the english. I should have put EXTRA effort in it. The math exam, I really did my best. mAYBE i should have studied more but it was the best I could do in such a pressure. Errm, kay so I'll be getting my results soon. Probably tommorow. I'm not gonna aim too high this time.

So what have I been doing this holiday? I've been playing with my com mostly. Haha. New game: The Sims 2. Yeah. New season of Survivor is coming up! I'm gonna be watching it of course...and yeah. new season of Big brother is coming up too. whee. double the fun. Olright Olright, I need to log off now. I have stuff to do. And its time for me to sleep soon anyway kk...I'll post some more tommorow.

161616161616161616

2008-01-23T23:21:00.000-08:00

I'm finally 16. =) I don't think I've grown much inside. I'm still me. Well, i've matured a little. But i STILL think like me. I don't really know what I'm doing blogging right now. It's 2.3oam and I have an exam tommorow afternoon. I'm supposed to be sleeping right? Getting some rest. I guess I'm a little distracted.

So, what's interesting in my life so far? I got a little drunk last night, sipping like more than a glass of beer. geez it felt awful. My throat has been burning for the past couple of days and hopefully it'll get better. I know that drinking alcohol wasn't gonna help...I'm not dumb you know..

Divy, Marina, Myesha, Teri, Sarah and Catherine came to the small party I threw in my condo. My mom cooked some food and bought a cake. it was my favourite cake. Black forest. And I ended the night with cake on my face. iF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. they threw cake on my face....lol. It was really hectic. Anyhow, Marina and Myesha got lost somehow, and they SOMEHOW found their way to my apartment. I was really impressed....at their ability. I have to say that I've underestimated their intelligence...sorry Marina!

Oh Marina is going back to mexico tommorow. I feel so bad for not helping her. She's been nothing but a great friend to me so far. I really wish she would be back for next semester. Marina! Try not to get expelled! I'm gonna write her a quick letter now. She's going back to sit for her exams in Mexico..I'm not sure if she'll pass. I'll try to help her out tommorow morning. but now, I guess I'll have to help myself. I haven't prepared anything for Math and the exam, which is worth 60% of the final course, is on Friday. I'm starting to panic. Tommorow is the business exam. I'm quite confident about it. For business, all I need is the momentum. I tried memorising just a few minutes ago and it worked. it went into my head. I think I'm going to score pretty well. My target for the exam is 92%. I know Divy is going to get higher than me. But he deserves it. He studies harder than me and is more intelligent than me.

So, I got a new macbook for my birthday, and I'm still busy playing with it now. I do everything on it now. I also got two books from Sarah. She's been really nice to me and i guess i should start being nice to her. I'm going to get her booze or something for the party on Saturday. Oh yah. I almost forgot, there's a party going on Saturday. After exam party. yup I'm invited. I think I'll get her a book too. since she got me two books. And I didn't really get her anything nice for her birthday. Anyways, I'm gonna go now. It's late and I'm gonna go study for Math. I don't care for business now. That's simple. kay, I'll post as soon as I can.

Keep on walking, don't hesitate to run.

2008-01-07T04:34:00.000-08:00

It's now 7.30 in the morning, and I'm writing this probably because it's the only time I'll have in a while. So busy with so many things. I'm so glad that I've finished my math homework. Whee. It's such a relief.....it's worth 5% of my overall mark this semester in grade 11 math. And the questions weren't simple and straight-forward either. Had to think. Even Catherine couldn't finish it.

So, Tom, my stepbro, left to Scotland yesterday, back to where he belongs. I'm glad I can have the bed all to myself. LOL. I had to share a room. Okay okay, I'm mean right? Nah. It was fun having him here. At least I didn't have to put up with the intermitten silence in my family. I know it's weird and unorthodox but seriously, can't be helped. I guess I'm not "The" Family Guy.

Yeah, yesterday I couldn't edit the school newspaper cause there wasn't enough articles written. I need a few more articles from the people. I'm going to ask for an extension because it seems that people were gone during the holidays and it was hard to communicate. So what did I do yesterday? I went to Square One (Again), with Rochelle. We didn't actually watch the movie in Square One, it was in Famous Players, just 5 mins from Square One. We watched I am Legend and Rochelle was terrified half the time! LOL! And while we were walking home, she dropped her purse on the ground thanks 2 me. I know I'm so bad. sorry yea?

After that I didn't feel like waiting long for the bus. So I decided to take a 15-min walk home. It was refreshing and not so cold. Fortunately, for I wasn't wearing anything warm. While walking back home, I reflected on what I did during these past few days, these past few weeks, and most of all, these past few months. I know I've changed a bit. Maybe for the better, maybe for the worst. I couldn't really be bothered to think too much. I just let the music flow through my earphones as I keep on stepping forward.

Times may be rough, Times may be tough, but really, all you can do is move along. Just because somebody that you know, died, doesn't mean you should die too. You have to simply move along. It doesn't even have to be death. It can be anything. It can be any event that has a huge significance in your life. On my way back home, I felt like running. My heart told me to run, but my legs won't budge. It wasn't the right condition to run.

God knows I miss running. I wished I had taken the path of an athlete. I wished I had trained harder than I had. I wished I hadn't skipped all those training sessions just for a trip to mcdonald with friends. Wishes are just wishes right? They're all gone now. It's all about moving forward.

zzzz

2008-01-02T09:50:00.001-08:00

Hi all. It's been a a boring couple of weeks for me. No matter how many things happened. (not much). I've been on my laptop like 24/7. I been sleeping late, which is quite unusual for me. This is becoming more and more of a habit. And I don't think I should keep it. School is starting soon, exams are coming soon. The exams are almost exactly on my birthday. You say coincidence I say fate.

Right, So today, I think I'll be doing my Math homework, which is very hard. I need Catherine's HELP. So I'm going to school to give her a visit. hahah. Yeah I'm also very bored. So yea. I'm really going to school....

Sigh...there's almost nothing to write about. I'm as bored as I can be...

Break my back once,twice maybe not thrice.

2007-12-30T17:24:00.000-08:00

Holidays! It was a torment. Yes it was. I was grounded, with no compute or laptop. Imagine how boring it was. Yes. Extremely, utterly boring. I couldn't find a better word for it.

I had to put up with more than a week of dong absolutely NOTHING. And I had so many meltdowns I couldn't even count! Yes it was frustrating!

Last Thursday I came back home at 2am and thats why I was grounded. I was in Toronto with some friends and yea, I missed the train and shit lol had to go back home late. Anyhow, it's been more than a week since the incident, and I'm willing to put my past behind me. I've moved on.

Yesterday on Saturday, I went out with Marina and Teri and my brother to Square One. My curfew if I wanna go to Square One is now 9 o' clock. And If I wanna go to Toronto, it's 6 o'clock. Shit right? I know.

We watched Juno, it was really really good. The movie was enjoyable and we all could relate to it in many different ways. The acting was incredible and I think Ellen Page deserves to win the Golden Globe. Yeah she's nominated for Best New Actress. My vote goes to her.

Oh shit. I forgot to watch Amazing Race. Never mind about that. I can catch it on sometime later perhaps. Okay so exams is a few weeks from now, its o my birthday. Very nice timing right? I'm almost 16 fuckers! Yeah I'm a sweet 16 bastard! Talking about Birthday, appy birthday to Gurjas! who turned 14 yesterday.

Yea I went to her birthday party today but unfortunately, I had to go home early cos of my 6pm curfew. It was nice tho. Got to meet new people and stuff.

So tommorow is New Year's eve, and I have to go get some things. First thing, my backpack broke, and then my walet broke. HOW DOES THAT FREAKING WORK! give me a break! NOT BY BREAKING SOMETHING OF MINE BUT GIVE ME A BREAK BY GIVING IT A REST!

I know. I'm fuckin lame.

Olrite hookers, see ya later....

PS. i GOT AN IPOD TOUCH AND A CALVIN KLEIN WALLET FOR CHRISTMAS! AND GOLDEN COMPASS BOOK! AND NEW SWEATER! AND NEW SCARF! AND NEW CD CASE! AND ONE REPUBLIC CD! IT WAS TOTALLY DOSS!

Christmas is coming!!!

2007-12-16T07:16:00.000-08:00

First of all, My apology for not coming to blog here any sooner. I've been thinking about it but I'm really busy. This week is probably the busiest week since I've been here. Its been long, tiring and time-consuming. Guess what I'm talking about? Everything! Math test, Murals, and not forgetting, the talent show. The talent show. I think it went well. Considering I had very little rehearsals. I think next time I should play my own guitar. That way, I can rehearse myself without bothering others.

The talent show was great. Yea. I performed like in the middle of the show? Was nervous of course, and after the performance, I had a stomach cram as usual. It's been like this for ever. I missed Sarah's Karaoke performance. Heard it was okay. She san Blue Christmas. And Divy? He was hilArious. I'm proud to be his friend. Everyone was cheering for him. He was so so funny. He wen up for the "Random Talent" section. He sang and danced to the beat of Jingle Bell Rock. My parents told me that he's a really funny guy.

Mrs. Milnes' husband? Errrm. I feel bad for them because they seem kinda bored and lonesome in the middle of the crowd? Wonder where is her daughters/sons. Anyways, my murals is almost complete. I just need to actually straighten the line. Emily said that I'll just ruin it, but I take it that she just doesnt trust me. I'm actually not happy with the wall. I wanted it to be so much better. I guess first time isn't a charm?

And I'm so so sorry. I have a bad news for u guys in Singapore. I won't be coming home on February. I'll be home in June. I'm so sorry! I know! My dad's contract have been extended and Yea I'll be staying here till then. I don't know about the details whatsoever. That's all I know for now. My birthday is coming up! Not real soon but whatever you know. I'll be 16 in January 22nd. Geez Fiersa. Grow fucking up. What do I want for my birthday? A macbook. from my dad. yea. He said he'll get one if I do well on my exams. I'm pretty sure I'll screw my math tho. Anyways, for Christmas, I wanna get a book or a cd or something. cheap ones doesn't really bother me u know. a scarf would do too. Chocolates will do too!

Random photos.

2007-11-17T15:11:00.000-08:00

Fire in Bronte

2007-11-17T08:44:00.000-08:00

It's getting really cold here in Toronto. And I haven't bought my boots. Lol. Yesterday it was snowing a little in the morning. Just a little. So....how is everyone liking my new music in the profile? So far away by Staind? Yeah it's an old song but I really like it.

So yesterday, on Friday, I was quiet in class. I don't know why. Again, the distant factor between me and the guys seemed obvious. I kinda seem like the loner don't you think? But I know I have a choice not to. It's just that I need to bark up in class. I haven't been paying attention lately and I need to change that. I just went through some self-re-evaluation time with myself and I know what is going wrong. I need some time alone. Yeah. I know eh? Loser-ish.

So, this weekend, I don't think I'm going anywhere except for the library on Sunday. I need to make my library card. It's already November and I need to catch up on my reading! Ouh. Yeah. This week, I've listened to a song titled "Home" by Michael Buble. And I realised how much I missed home. Yeah. Singapore. But I guess I only have like three months here? I will make the best of it here. My sixteenth's b'day is coming up on 22jan! Lol. Okay I know I sound over-ly excited. Hahah. I'm getting a Macbook. What do you expect? Yeah this laptop is way too obsolete already.

Hmmm....let's continue on what happened yesterday. Friday. I went out to Tim Horton during lunch time with the guys as usual. I don't wanna be too distant. Yeap. And during Grade 11 math class, I understood a bit. A bit. And Cathrine already fully understood it. I'm so behind time. mAN. I need to work. Okay after that it was art. We spent like 5 min in class before the fire alarm went off. Everyone actually took their time making their way out of the building. It was a mere fire drill in their heads. It turned out the other way around. Smoke came out of someone's room. That someone turned out to be Debbie. Yeah I don't really know her but I seen her before. She's the Chinese girl in grade 11 I think? Yeah so okay, we had to stand outside for like 20-30min, withstanding the cold wind blowing on our necks...Yeap. It was like -1 at the time.

After that, we had to wait in the cafeteria for around 20min. And then we had to go back to the class and wait for like 30min again. Everything is 30min. I wonder why. lOL. yEa. The fire wasn't that big but I still feel for Debbie. Hmmm...my deepest condolences to her.

So....just a quick shout out to Zee, who is currently working in Mr. Subs. Go concentrate on your working! Haha. U hav to show me round downtown as I said before. Yup. we'll surely hang out. Christmas holidays is like a month away!!!! =) waiting for it.

!!#@#!

2007-11-16T04:47:00.000-08:00

yEAH! I passed my Grade 11 math test! Now I'm in Grade 11 for Math! HAHAA. Okay so happy lah wth. You have no idea. I thought I was gonna fail! Anyw, it's catch-up time. I cannot lag anymore. Means most of the time I have to stay back after school and catch up with work. Yes yes. Not much lunch for me anymore. T.T. But whatever lah. I'm willing to sacrifice that.

Anyways, Zee! I'm meeting you when? Lol. Okay nvm. Hhaha. Show me around Downtown Toronto okay? Goodluck on your driving test next week! Hmm, anyways, I feel like I'm kinda distancing myself from the group I used to be so close with. I don't know why lah. I just suddenly feel like they're quite childish.....not that I'm not it's just that I wanna grow up.

Art! I'm doing the absract Art now. I suck in that. I really didn't know what TO DRAW!....Anyways, on this weekend, I will probably be working to catch up with the grade 11 work. Sigh.....means no movies no going out. And extreme mugging. Just like Siew Han. She had to catch up on so much work. Now I have to do so too. Hmm. Okay, I don't know if I am staying here or not for the next semester. My dad is going to Madagascar in 2 month. And my mom is going to Singapore I guess. If they leave me here to live in the residence, well, good for me. If I go back to Singapore, I accept my fate.

Before all that, I just wanted to say that I really had a fun and enjoyable time here in Toronto. I gained so many friends that I didn't know I could. These people have been amazing towards me throughout this whole semester. And I've been recruited as the Newspaper club editor! Seriously the work is tough. But I am still honoured to be the editor. Yea. And I'm not quitting.

Okay, So I think I will end my blog here, because I need to go to school. I'm already late. Okay, See yea people.

Malicious Monday

2007-11-12T16:45:00.000-08:00

Hmmm.....Hmmmm...Hmmmmm...I always start my blog with hmm......lol bleh K! Today is a malicious Monday. Why Malicious Monday? Cause there are so many assignments that are killing me! Hmmm.....yea but I always get through the days with a smile. A smile will always help you get through the day. =)

Anyways, I am supposed to have a big math test today. It will determine where I'm supposed to be. Grade 10 or 11. But the teacher is absent again. Stupid. Worked so hard for it and she absent. chee bye lah. LOL.

The trees are becoming dead. The leaves are gone. The winter season is finally here. Signs of snow has already shown itself upon our doorsteps. well. A little exaggerated yea but...hmmm quite true.

I've just finished reading Lord of the flies. I think it was okay. Could be less vague. I hate having to read between the lines and all that. The character that I picked for my journal, turned out to be the hardest. Young Simon. Uh I swear to god he is very complicated. He is like a psychic kid. LOL. U have no idea how hard it is to infer all the time. Hmmm. So talent show is almost here.I think I am going to audition for it. I'm not ready yet tho. However I have a song on my mind. It is most probably Imagine by John lennon. Hmmmm.....I really hope I can pull this off..

Life is a bore. Life is a pain in the ass.

2007-11-02T13:34:00.000-07:00

Errrm, I'm not really in a good mood today. I feel so tired these days. I know, I've been complaining that I felt tired all the time. What is wrong with me? Lol. I think I sleep enough. Don't know what's wrong though.

So I just wanna mention this briefly. I had a girlfriend this week. It only lasted for 4 days. She is pretty and all. But live too far away. Thus she think that this relationship would not work. I, however, errrm partially agree with that. Okay, so I'm a little hurt. A little disappointed. But people move on. I have to move on. Life is like a highway where cars speed up and not halt just anywhere. If I do halt, I have to go on.

Anyways yeah, I've had a long string of bad luck with relationships. None of them last longer than 2 weeks. Which is to me, really awfully pathetic. So right now, I'm trying to lay low as usual. Yeah As usual. living my life. I'm gonna be 16 in 2 months. And guess what? I haven't got my first kiss yet. Lol. How bad is that? NO. I don't think it's bad. I wanna save it for someone I really love and care about. I know that some people don't really put too much emphasis on this but I really do.

So, I lost my cell phone. And I'm trying to get a new one as soon as possible. It's really not as easy as u think it is. I have to save more money than usual as my parents don't even wanna hear me beggin for money off them. Fuck right? Lol.. How was I to know it dropped out of my pocket? Yea yea yea I know u people r gonna start saying it's my fault and all. But keep on talking. I'm listening. LOL.

So yes, there's many things going on for me this weekend. I need to finish some articles for the Newspaper Club. And also scan the picture drawn by Van. It's really good. It's gonnna be the front cover of Bronte Pages. Oh yes. About my report card

Here's the result:

Math- 98

Business-94

English-88

Art-90

Average-93

Yeah I might have the best average in grade 10 and 9 but yea I don't think I'm smart. I just do my work and study. That's all you have to do to score.

New Specs!

2007-10-20T08:55:00.000-07:00

Hola peeps. I'm not really in a good mood but still wanna post anyways. My math test to go to grade11 has been postponed to next week. lol. Anyw, im not in a good mood because I really have a feeling only 1 person is gonna come to the movies in about 2 hours. I am so dead. Hahha. It would be so weird lah.

I'm now praying quite hard for myesha and marina to come. Today I'm buying a costume. For Haloween. Slipknot that is. I know its crazy and I want it to be crazy and yet not too crazy.

ANyw, I haven't watched tennis in such a long time. I miss it. =(. Not that I don't have time, it's not available on tv. =(

K. I'll make this post a short one then. I gotta go lunch. And then get ready for movies. I know I'm obsessed with watching movies in the cinema ok. But that's just me!

Anchored my brain!!!

2007-10-16T15:17:00.000-07:00

Wow. I cannot believe how much work I had last week. to divy it might be nothing. But to me it was anything but nothing. Yea I know it sounds exaggerated but thats the truth. I had to edit so many articles for the newspaper and typed all 7 articles of mine too. And there was business (they give the stupidest assignment ever), English (it killed me a good deal. Romeo and Juliet pretty much anchored my brain to the bottom of the ocean!) We have to think a lot for english ok.

I completely had no time for myself! Well maybe a while. Anyways, this week I am going to lay off a bit since I finished editing all the newspaper. I'm going to study for the Math test on Thursday a bit but not really so thorough. I'm going to flunk I think? I don't think I can make it to grade 11. On friday there's a business test. I know another one. We have test every single week. It's not even funny. I have to study a lot to actually gain 90% plus ok. It's no easy work. If you think that I'm just smart u can go f*** urself. I'm nothing but smart. Oh. the piece of challenging puzzle ms milne gave me, I couldn't even do it. It was too hard for me. No shit. I gave up after 15 minutes. yea. My IQ is just too low lah.

Siew Han is going to change her school. Whoops she's not coming to Bronte. Too bad for me then. No singaporean to talk to. The Singaporean in my school is from grade 12 and 11..I don't fit with them rite..anyways, art this week is extraodrinarily boring. It's pretty much ancient art. We spent the whole class sleeping or watchin a video. It was REALLY boring. Every morning, there's also English class. Romeo and Juliet again. I CANNOT emphasize more on how tired I am getting with this book. It's an endless boring story which requires u to read between the lines. And Shakespeare....I think he doesn't know how to spell. LOL.

Oh today I took an eye exam. My eyes seemed to improve. Good? lol. Dunno. A bit only lah. I chose 2 spectacles for booking. I'm goin to pay for them tommorow and get them on the next day. Yeah this is going o be such a surprise for people. The colour is really striking for one of the specs. White. I know. I just want something different I guess. The other one is black. yeah black as usual. There's not much color choice anyways. I had to choose between black black or black white. So I wanted something different. There u go.

About my friendster. I don't know what happened to it. I won't be using it for long because it keeps relinking me to another site. It's irritating. I won't use it much. Gonna use facebook now. Yeah. ok. Never mind bout that. I think I'm going to study now. For the Math test on Thursday and the Business test on Friday. They're torturous I tell you.

2007-10-13T06:00:00.001-07:00

I'm so stupid. lol. to think that ****** could ever *******. Haha. ANyways, things are the way they are because they are. I have no power to change it. I'm so sorry. I'm very uncertain in today's post. bUt I can't really be certain. I know I'm supposed to go to the mosque but I missed my cue. I have to actually wait for the 2nd session at 10am. The stupid bus didn't come this morning. I was left waiting at the bus stop for 1hour. It was COLD!!

You know what yea I'm in a bad mood. But I can't always follow my mood if I wanna do stuff properly. One thing in life shouldn't affect me that badly. At least, I HOPE SO. I hope I wont crash and burn. But I have a feeling i ACtually will. There's so many things to do over the weekend. Mainly to do the newspaper club.
I guess I have to go now...before I actually got left out again.

2007-10-13T06:00:00.000-07:00

Aly!

2007-10-10T17:18:00.000-07:00

lol. This is a picture of Aly. The one on the left. She's pretty as always. She didn't want this picture to be taken. But I snapped it anyways.

I don't wanna kill this blog. I just wanna hurt it with my miserable life.

2007-10-10T14:28:00.000-07:00

It's Wednesday. Three or 2 more days right? Yeah. Fasting month is almost over. I don't really count everything down, and I really don't wanna sound like a bad muslim but yea, sometimes I keep a look on the calendar. It's almost over.

Today Aly and Mumta joined the weird group for lunch. Yeah. I call it weird because it is. It was nice of them. I know I'm saying this like we are a bunch of retards and aly and mumta are volunteers to keep us content. Lol. But I seriously think our group is somehow retarded. Marina? Me? Myesha? Divy? oH yes divy. Zack is weird at times too.

So, never mind about the group. Don't feel like talking about it. Notice that I'm not even laughing right now. In a bad mood? Probably. Dilemma? Don't know. Confused? Yes. About what? I can't say in here. Sorry.

And tommorow sucks. I have to do so many things. I have to complete the English project today. And the Newspaper thing. Almost all by myself. I know I'm a retard okay. I can't even organise myself and get this work done PROPERLY. So, tonight, I guess I'll be working my ass off. Again. On Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet. I have to re-read the whle of Act 3 again to know for sure that I understand everything. Business? Oh yeah. I forgot. There is homework. Okay, I'll stop complaining. This blog is crying for help already. I don't wanna kill it. I just wanna hurt it with my miserable daily life.

If I can get through this, I can get through anything

2007-10-09T02:53:00.000-07:00

Goodnight, Goodnight, parting is such a sweet sorrow

that I shall say Goodnight till morrow.

I picked those lines from shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet. Yep. haha. Haloween is coming up. I haven't bought my costume. Don't even know if I wanna buy it or not. I might look too gothic in that. Yeah I guess. haha. Oh yes. GOD. i ALMOST FORGOT. Art of Dying CD is out!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOT................ It's time to go to HMV....hahah. One of their song is very inspirational. Get thru this. If I can get through this, I can get through anything! If I can make it through this, I can make it through anything!!!

Hahah. So yesterday I kinda worked my way through the day. I really don't know how I made it through with so many works done. I guess I was talking to aly. Haha. It made me relax a little bit. Thanks to aly.=)

oH and I didn't even miss the Heroes Episode last night! Lol! Lucky me! I remembered! I've almost forgotten about it you know.

Hmm....okay about aly again...before I forget this. I think I'm playing with fire. I'm afraid it might burn me but you know what I'll take the chance. Even if it means I'll have to burn in hell. What the heck lol? haha. I don't really wanna translate that right now. Not here anyways.

Hmm...so it's currently 6 in the morning. The sun isn't even up yet. It's still so dark outside. My dad is gonna wake up soon and I don't what he'll do to my com if he finds out I'm blogging right now. LOL. He is what I would call unpredictable.

So I saw a trailer for the movies The Comebacks last night. I think it was hillarious- especially the Serena Williams part. Yeah man!!!

Oh yeah. Anyways, I wanna say this real quickly. I've had it up to here with business. It's so depressing to do all that work. God. I was really gonna kill myself yesterday. With the sun so strong and the heat unbearable! Yeah I was pretty much falling apart. But I'm glad I got through it. It's another assignment I got through. Let's see how many As I can get. Anyways, I don't know if my bro is gonna come here or not. The oldest one that is. He's 19 I think. He's coming from ScotlanD But not confirmed yet. Anyways, yesterday I watched Prom Night. It was set in the 1980. Yeah It was really old. Jamie Lee Curtis was on it. She was a really good dancer! But it was obvious she looked old even when she was young! lol no offense...Oh yeah. About my new blog layout. Do u all like it? Give me a tag alright. And I'm so sorry I lost all ur links. I have to relink from the beginning. Fuck me. haha. No jks. Ok I need to go. b4 my dad wakes up. haha. k see ya dicks

Breathe......

2007-10-07T20:27:00.000-07:00

OKay, if I can say a thousand F words, I would. But I can't. So aly knows. She knows for god's sake. ok. BIG OKs. ....hmmmm.......so what right? haha.

Okay I'm thinking normal right now.....oh god...I'm just so stupid you know. I have stupid written across my heAD.

OKay...so today...i forgot to work out. way to go fiers. But luckily I didn't forget to get my tickets for the bus in square one. lol. OK how many OKs am I using now. lol.....so today I downloaded Rob zombie's NEVER GONNA STOP ME. FREAK i'M ADDICTED. its just amazing. Serious!

Okay, I'm seriously thinking of marathon mugging now. I'm getting stupid you know. I haven't done so many mathematical equations in so long.

I'm probably gonna study business tommorow. Til I drop dead. And math. Yeah. I will study it. Oh yeah. To meita: if ure reading this lol i miss going to the movies with u ok!! Gdluck in ur exam...I'm rooting for u. U r my inspiration in everything i do. Well almost. haha. KK.

Yah Meita is that great ok. She is a very shar perfectionist. I will be one too. Soon. I'm sorry this blog is really littered with perfectionism. I know I'm mad alright.

Oh fuck I didn't watch smallville. Yeah. Thanks to my little sister. who was watching the tv. hahaha. She's a little devil. Oh yeah. There's been some requests. Divy wants to be mentioned in this blog. Okay divy is really a smart person. He thinks very quickly and also very good academically. He likes House a lot. Obsessed. Haha. I guess everyone has their obsession. Like I'm obssesed with Hayden Panettierre from heroes.

Okay, Aly wants to be mentioned too. What do I say? Do I think of her each day? Probably. =).

Hah. And she has a nice smile olrite. And finally she has some sense of fashion....unlike somebody I know. And she's really really nice. Her personality is amazing. SO far. haha. jks.

Okay so I think that should close it.

Haloween coming up! Change of plans. Wearing slipknot

2007-10-06T11:18:00.000-07:00

Wow...so i dated someone for only 4 or 5 days. New record. Anyways, that's not the point. It was over because i didn't like her. I don't have any feelings for her. yeah that''s the reason. lol. Anyways, so this makes me think twice about haloween. I got a new date for haloween. I'm not sure if its DATE DATE or just friendly date. Anyways, I like Aly. She's sweet lol. But I don't get to see her much cos she's only in my Business class.

Anyways, this week, Siew Han and I got closer. We became something like best friends. hhehe. We're enjoying toronto here. But siew han is enjoying it less than i do i think. Mainly because she doesn't fit in her school I've told her to ask her dad to move her into my school, Bronte. Her school is in Milton and i don't think it's a very good public school. Anyways, I really am hoping for her to come to Bronte. We can talk about Singapore everyday. And What a thing it would be if we're in the same school again. haha.

So yesterday, on friday, I went to Square one to pick my haloween costume. I think it would be one of the member of Slipknot. Of course, without the masks. I wouldn never look good in masks. heh. Talkin bout hardcore. Yah. Nowadays I listen to more Metal Music. Slipknot, Metallica, Bullet for My valentine and All that Remains. hmm. What can I say? They're music to my ears.

So, no I haven't found a band. And I don't think i ever will. ABout the fasting thing....haha it's going great. But it's really a torture because I have to watch my friends eat lunch every single day. Lol. And I don't get to eat anything. Everyday, during Lunch time, we would go to Tim Hortons. It's like a very popular cafe around here. My friends would grab bagels and I would sit outside with them and chat. Pretending not to be hungry. Well sometimes I really wasn't hungry. But now I am. yep. So, Winter is coming soon. Its fall now. The leaves are turning into all sorts of elegant colours. yeah I'll take pictures of them soon. Oh yah and as to why I'm no longer using friendster a lot, well....i using facebook more often. haha. and yeah. do add my new msn: fier_factor17@hotmail.com

Wake Up

2007-09-30T08:46:00.000-07:00

So I'm finally blogging now. Long time no blog eh? Actually it's been only a week? Yeah So I guess I'll make this blog a weekly blog. So something interesting happened this week. I finally got myself a girlfriend. Actually it's just u know, an experimentation....We'll see how it goes. It also turned out her parents and mine are friends. Lol. What a random coincidence. Anyhow, It's been quite an interesting week. I've had to run a marathon on Friday and my legs are still sore! Yea I haven't ran since may? Oh I didn't fast on Friday too. I had to run lol. Anyways, I'm repeating this again, sorry to those who got irritated but I just feel good cos my art got framed in my school's upcoming exhibition. Anyways, it's really a decent piece of art but for me, who've been very clumsy in art, is a very good achievement. yep. No one will ever guess that I can draw.

Hmm...on Friday, a new english book were also given out. It's called "The lord of the flies."/ I know its a really popular book but I really haven't read or have the slightest idea about it til I read half of the book yesterday. I haven't finished it obviously I don't know...I feel so lazy. I still got some homework to be done but I feel so damn lazy man. Hmmm..anyways, these days I reminisce the days when i was back in Singapore. I feel that I'm much more happier now. Probably it's the light work. probably it's the whol new friendship I got. Nevertheless, I still miss singapore with all my freaking heart. It's like a second home for me. I'm comin back to Singapore on February. Yeah soon right? I can't wait to taste the delicious sweet popcorn!!!!

Anyways, that's all I wanna share this week. Sorry for the really short post. I don't have an idea of what to say anymore. HaHAH.

Stupid movie

2007-09-23T07:54:00.000-07:00

Wow.....watching yesterday's movie was so awkward. We were sitting in the middle of a bunch of stupid and immature people....whoooo.....they were funnier than the movie. The movie wasn't funny at all. It was you know those type of fell good family movies aimed at kids...well...we had no choice...i seen superbad and goodluck chuck was 18 and above.....anyways, we had to wait for myesha and marina for 2 and a half hours. They were late. As expected. Marina told us she went to a club last night and they were rejected because it was too late. And there was no transportation back home. So they had to sleep in a hotel. Don't ask me what they did there because I frankly don't wanna know. lol.....

Time and time again we saw Emily's brother and her cousin pass us by. They were watching goodluck chuck....emily's brother looked like hes 22 while he's 15. I swear he looks 22. I even thought emily brought her uncle or something. yah so the day was mostly spent on waiting for myesha and marina. Zack couldn't make it because he has hockey practice. what a jock. ok there's 2 homeworks waiting to be done. I haven't touched them. Wonder what will happen to me. Nothing. Cause I will do it. But not with much effort. I'm so sick and tired of business. Its assignments are really dumb.....and the teacher itself is sickening. English? I couldn't be bothered to read the whole romeo and juliet play. It's so long and my eyes got painful from looking at all those.....alien words...anyhow....I'm just gonna start on my projects now...okay I'll blog again next week....

I do it for the joyyyy

2007-09-21T19:25:00.000-07:00

Hey so today was quite okay except for the fact that assignements are poring in. I'm serious. There's Romeo and Juliet to be done, There's the stupid business assignment which is literally stupid and there's the math assignment. I finished the art assignment right after I came home. I had nothing else to do. So I thought I might do something relaxing. lol.

ANyhow, today went well. as always. Myesha woke up late. Again. She missed half of the school periods. She only turned up in science. During lunch period Emily me marina divy and zack went to the benches outside the Trillium Medical Centre to chit chat while some of us eat. We ended up playin truth or dare. I swear that game is getting gay. Divy volunteered to be the first one to dare. And he was dared to dance his way from the carpark all the way back to the benches! And so many people stared and laughed! Even all those people who were in their rooms were watching him! lollll hillarious. Emily has the video i think. hehe.

ANyways, Math class was easy as always. This time he gave many homeworks. lollllll crazy. And Art class was fun as always. Less fun actually. We didn't get to go out bcos mrs goik was too busy. And we didnt really concentrate when we go out. I managed to get the shape of my shells right. FINALLY. And I brought it home. I drew and Idrew and I drew. And I coloured. My back is hurting now. I worked for like 1 1/2 hours. oh yah before i went home I actually went to cut my hair. yup...its gettin long. and uncomfortable. ok so its shorter so what? lmaoooo

Anyhow, I need to go....wanna do my english assignment. And tommorow must wake up early. Sahur. lol. Fasting again. 21 more days. hahah I shouldnt even be counting but u know lol....ok offffff

Are u serious?

2007-09-21T02:49:00.000-07:00

Hey......finally I blog. Sorry so many things have been going on and in the end, I forgot that I have a blog. hehe. School is cool. My teachers are ok. My art teacher is so good! She lets us draw outside under the trees and also listen to music when she's not talking. And she's funny lol. She would call everyone hunny and myesha would be like "what u call me hunny for? I aint ur hunny"

lol myesha is just hillarious. She's from bermuda and she has this aggressive nature. Her accent is so aggressive u would almost think she'd hit u when ure talking to her. lol. And then there's div. he's punjabi and reminds me a lot of jeevan. tho their personality is nothing alike. jeevan is destructive, div is just pussy! lol he's scared of bees....and then there's emily. she's just sweet and funny at times lol. And she share on common interest with me! survivor and big brother fan! lol....big brother is finally over. I can't believe dick won. And dani in the final 2. I wouldn't even believe that would happen lol. Anyways, I have to stay organized, though there is not much things to be done in school, doesn't mean I should mess my life. lOl. It's currently 5:54 am here in Toronto. The weather is fine. At times it gets cold like 10 degrees especially in the morning.

The bus here is ust horrible. I mean its easy to get on and all that but there's no double decker! of course there would be overcrowding! What did the govt expect? gosh they never use their brain. In the morning its always very crowded. so I go to schoola bit later. at 8am. If I go at 7.30 it will be full packed with school kids and adults going to work. Mostly its kids from the public school....Anyways, I wanna put an emphasis on the population here in Canada. Canada needs more immigrants to come stay here. Yah that's why you see a lot of chinese and indians and arabs. Yah there are many muslims here. The number of local people is decreasing!!!! yah I don't see them very often.

Anyways, I'm supposed to be doing my English Homework now but I really can't be bothered. I'll do it later. Yes. Its easy. English is a little harder. It's morelike literature. I would say that the hardest subject is maybe art or english. Art is challenging by nature. You can't change it. It's always been that way. It's either you're talented or not. Frankly speaking no I don't have the talent but I do enjoy drawing. Our current art porject is to draw organic shapes such as leaves, fruits and all that. Including shells. I'm drawing a shell. Shells seem out of the box. Therefore its the best choice.

New School

2007-09-09T18:33:00.000-07:00

hmmm....finally I get to post something. My laptop was confiscated for a whole week. so seriously I couldn't go online. I had school this week and it was really busy anyways. The first day of school was horrendous. It was hectic in every way you look at it. There were so many queing up and all that stuff.....!!!!!!!!! They don't have enough teachers!!!!!!!!!!! lol....so little....anyways...the school is excellent. I like it there. especially the uniform. white shirt, tie and grey pants. we wear blazers during winter. it's really really cool!!!!! Of course I don't wear blazers these days. It's way too hot. Anyways, I'm taking Visual Art, Grade 10 english, Business and grade 10 maths. Grade 10 english is harder than I expected. We had to infer a lot because it was more like literature. But it was ok. Grade 10 maths is really the easiest of all. too easy. lol. ANyways, Visual art is challenging. I'm challenging myself because I want to know more about art and I know I'm not very strong on the subject so I'm gonna work on it.Business is probably a little boring. We had to take down so many notes and have s many tests and stuff. It's really technical stuff. I wish we could do somepractical stuff...

Anyhow, I was assigned t grade 9 on the first 2 days in school. But on the third day I changed to grade 10 cos they figured that I finished half of grade 9 in singapore and it's only fair that I don't repeat it. I guess Siew Han is doing the same thing. Wonder how she's doing in Milton Public school? It's not that far from here. probably can take the bus and visit her some time. mm....haha ok I really apologise If I haven't come up to msn for a long time. that's because my laptop got confiscated. lol. And today my dad gave it back to me. He went on a business trip today. wish him all the best. tommorow there's school. I did all the homework earlier on. I guess it was nothing hard. But the english one was taking a long time and getting me frustrated.

I watched The US open final on tv today. I had to say congrats to federer for winning his 4th us open title. He really deserved it. As for Justine Henin who won yesterday, she earned my respect and I think she gained a new fan. yup me. She just played so well the whole tournament and she really did nothing wrong to offend others. She might be a good person off the court. who ever knows. I used to hate her but heheh I guess I'm her fan now. But still big cheers for jelena jankovic who made it to the quarters. she almost made it to the semis...hmmm.....don't give up jelena! as for novak djokovic? Don't give up too! still a long way to go if u wanna beat federer?!!?!?!

Okay anyhow, I watched Big brother for the first time in 2 weeks just now. hehe I feel so relaxed. my fav tv show!!! dani and dick has made it to the top 4. Cheerios for the donatos!!!!!! whooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!! Zach put them on the block this week. But Danielle won the power of veto to actually save herself and her dad and make it to the top 3!!!!! whoooooooooooooooo cheerios again for the donatos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyways, About whom I hang out with in school...well.....pretty much reminds me of singapore. so multiracial because I go to private school. So many ppl from other countries. Mostly chinese but hey a lot of mexicans too. but I have to say they have their own cliques and we have our own. I hang out with mostly the grade 9. because I met them all on the first day of school. lol. 2 punjabi guys. one is called sandi the other one is called devy. 1 bermuda girl, she's called maisha???? I donno is I spelled it correctly. She's a bit nasty at times but funny. lol. 2 iraqi brothers: saddiq and aqeel. 1 local: zach. lol I have to say that the mexican boys in my grade 10 class are very perverted!!!!! lol!!!! they kept on talking about sex!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Of course I had nothing to say to them........lol.......I remained speechless. We were asked to discuss aboutsome metaphors during english class and he talks about sex!!!!! yah yah I remained speechless.

hmmm...tommorow is gonna be interesting. lockers-give away!!!!!!!!!! woooooot@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can't wait to dump all these 3-hole binders in that hole!!!!!!! lol....... so right now I gotta sign off. I'm probably gonna blog again sometime next week. not so soon tho.....alright see ya people

School in 3 days!

2007-09-01T16:55:00.000-07:00

hmm...okay I'm gonna be real quick with this post. Just gonna update on my proficiency test on thursday...oh well....I can't say I was satisfied with myself. I wasn't prepared to do such an easy test. Especially the maths test. I had to go all the way back to my primary school days to try and recall how to do easy sums mentally and quickly. I had a problem with almost none of the question but one. heheh screwed one question lol. I really forgot how to calculate mentally! hmm ok and the english test, I screwed more than 4 questions over 71 questions...hmmm.....pretty bad i think cos it was really easy. I had to go back all the way to my p4 years...lol. maybe p2 since I wasn't reallylearning english til p4!

Anyways, the point is, I'm not sure if they are going to put me in grade 10 or grade 9. But I will take everything seriously and make the best of my experience here in Toronto, Canada. Of curse I will try to learn as many things as I can on my own. I'm still trying to break free of that fucking comfort zone. sorry for the f word. it was necessary. ANyways, I've been watching the US open this week and I have to say it filled my days up. I finally have something to look forward to. I'm supporting quite a lot of new tennis stars this season. Vaidisova, Mirza, Agniezka Radwanska, Jelena Jankovic, Venus Williams and Agnes szavay. Lol I know. so many players. And for the men's side I was supporting Marcos Baghdatis, Novak Djokovic, Lleyton Hewitt, Jamie Murray, Andy Murray, Roger Federer, John Isner, Donald Young and Feliciano Lopez. hmmm....ok school is gonna start in 3 days. Just so that u all know, I'm way down and behind all u ppl's lvl of abilities in terms of academic right now. I haven't brushed on anything this holiday. A little regret but not so much. Because I think that fun and relax is just indispensable in our lives. We can't afford to lose every minute of it. I'm gonna post again on the day I start school. lol ok. see u all then.

a quick recap

2007-08-28T06:55:00.000-07:00

Hey people sorry about this blog and I know u all are screaming and shouting that u prefer the old layout but i feel the need for a change. ANyways, no the skulls and emo things are not symbols of my unhappiness because no I'm happy right now. Last week was happy enuff for me. I went to Niagara Falls riding a limousine and i really enjoyed the trip! The pictures I've taken there should be up in no time. However I must apologise for the missing chatterbox and the missing music box in my blog. I know it all takes time and I was too sleepy last nite to continue setting up the blog.

In the niagara falls I learned a couple of things. Not as many as I would like to but it was alright. I'll soon be posting postcards to u guys back in singapore. lol miss u. and hahha yep school is starting soon. next week. I'm taking the test on thursday. wish me luck! This morning I went to my school to check out the available transportations and on thursday I'm going to take the test. On the 4th of sept they're going to measure my size for the uniforms and also see what books is necessary for me. hmm..I'll be taking Canadian History, PE, Maths, English, science. lol It's ok for me. I just hate to take physics. I was never very good at it and I doubt I will be. We'll see though. It might be interesting. I'm always here for a challlenge. Anyways, currently I'm listening to Timbaland's new hit "The way I are". hehhe it's pretty cool and fell in love with it instantly. Relax by Mika is also not bad. mmm...I think I should end here....yah I'll blog again on thursday after taking the test. see yah

past all the troubles, into a new phase.

2007-08-20T16:13:00.000-07:00

pheww I'm thankful the hard days are over...and I can be myself once again and not stay at home to rot and die...

I've got my new ID for the condo...and so I can go out and have fun even if it means by myself. The first day I got it, I tried playing the 5-pin bowling. It was weird because there was only 5 pins and the bowling ball is minuscule. really tiny. hmmmm I know quite difficult at first to play but then anything is better than staying at home...And on the weekend I went downtown...there was a festival....it was an indian festival I wasnt sure what it was but there were lot of people and there were indian cultural dances on the stage. I guess it's to promote international friendship so that the local people will be more open to other cultures. My family and I went to hardrock cafe while we were downtown and believe me it was grand. haha. I love the place. took a few pictures of it and here you go!!! yah that guitar was signed by all members of Nickelback and there were many other merchandises by superstars.

Anyways, for the first time since I got here a couple of weeks back, I was able to watch tennis on tv. yah just for a day. the channel showed the semi-final match between jankovic and golovin. yup jankovic who's currently my fav player, went on to win the match but lost at the final to henin. Haha I don't know why I'm sharing this with u all but maybe it's because I feel a little bit light hearted today. Better than the past few weeks. Oh yah thanks to sumithra and varun and yeewen for cheering me up hahah those really meant a lot. If only you all knew how I felt: Isolated? enstranged? alone? Lol whatever it is its really negative and yo'd be better off not thinkin bout it.

hmm yah I forgot to mention one thing. I'm starting school 2 weeks from now so I'll only be online on weekend nights and mornings. at 10 am and 10pm.haha I'm like a radio station lol....

the most important thing in life- friends

2007-08-15T18:06:00.000-07:00

mmmm....I've just had another row with my mom...which brings me closer and closer to realising that I really don't belong in this family. Firstly, I'm not outgoing, I'm not smart, I can never concentrate, and blah blah..the list goes on. I just don't fit in. Wish i could be back in singapore with all my friends. I'd rather be there than continue living in this misery....
Its like being on an abandoned island just with you family. except, unlike any other family, I'm sure they will live happily ever after. But obviously not me. My family is....all about....perfection....and no I don't like it. I'm anything but perfect. I know myself too much maybe.

Hahah the reason why I'm blogging right now is to get everything off my chest again. I can't help but feel lonely so this is the only way to express things out. YOu know what I miss most? Jamming. Yah I really do. currently listening to the song "whatsername". My band and I used to jamm it in outram park, our usual jamming place. Those were friggin happy memos! mmmmm this is harder than I thought really. I never thought that coming to toronto would be a challenge. But I really do miss my friends. The most important thing in life- friends.

urrrgh

2007-08-09T15:20:00.000-07:00

urrrgh this week is getting in my head...its really frustrating. first the big brother thingy...now this. arrrrrghhhh I just watched the movies today and it was horrible. went to the cinema and really it was pretty much screwed. I wanted some sweet popcorns but they didn't sell any! I know I'm spoiled but really sweet popcorns are like the combo for the movies! And the simpsons movie was a bit corny. The jokes was a bit corny and the storyline was nothing very interesting. I'll give it 2 and a half stars. hmmm maybe it was really a waste of time going to watch tt movie.

And....a huge tennis tournament is here next week and I don't know if I really wanna see it. I'm afraid my fav tennis stars disappoints me. Then it would be a waste of money and effort to find the damn way there. The transportation here is a bit weird...cos it's a big country anyways. yah so u gotta find ur ways around things. By the way, it's also been frustrating because I can't use any facilities here because I don't have any ids yet. wtf right. screw that. man...I hope things get better for me.

My Parents are givign me BS!!!!

2007-08-07T19:10:00.000-07:00

Hey there ppl I just need tog get somethings off my chest right now that I'm really mad at some people and wasn't able to get them off my chest verbally. I was watching a fav show of mine "Big Brother". it's a reality show. And I know it's a bit cheeky but it really is a great entertainment for me at least. And I'm mad at my parents and actually my whole family dislikes it. Even my step brother dislikes it. But seriously, I think that I have the right to watch what I want to watch. I'm odl enough to at least have a freedom of choice. I know what I like and I think they should let me watch it. You know what. That's not it. They do let me watch it. But they just get in my head! They would be like saying out loud, "this show is disgusting and all that BS." I get it I get it.

Reality show to them is BS. but what about all those other shows they watch?? America's funniest home video? That show is really retarded. Watching other people's moment of misery or pain (whether they wanted us to or not) is equally "disgusting" as watching reality shows. I know that big brother has some foul words but then again, I'm 15. I know what I wanna say. I know what I won't I know myself. God they don't even know their own son. I know I don't get influenced that Easily. Besides, I've watched ther shows that contains more foul words than big brother. This is just silly to me. But you know what I did proud? I dind't say anything to them. I said NOTHING! I kept my trap sht. And I walked away with my dignity whether they like it or not. I don't hate them. i just despise the way they are treating me. They think that I'm some1 naive that needs to be protected from the BS SHOW!

Fiersome

2007-08-06T16:42:00.000-07:00

Holla there. Gonna be catching up on tennis next week! Some great stars are coming to toronto. Stars like Maria Sharapova, Jelena Jankovic, Sania Mirza and Ana IvANovic I really cannot miss!! Okay so maybe I'll only be going for the first rounds but it's better than nothing. It's a once in a lifetime opportunity!

hmm....my brother recently arrived from Glasgow. He's here in toronto for the holiday. Good cos I don't even have any company or things to do this long holiday. The sun is blazing hot this summer in toronto. Sometimes its 35 degrees...yah I know it's scorching hot! Anyways, yesterday went to airport to pick up my bro and saw lots of ppl there fetchin their loved ones. Anyways I saw this group of ppl carrying a banner high up saying welcome or somth like tt. Lol...stood there for about one and a half hour before my bro suddenly came out of the immigration.

So yesterday was my mom's B'dau. Happy b'day again mom! yah she's 40 this year. Anyways, today we went out to the restuarant opposite our house. It was called the "Swiss Chalet". It's nothing grand and fancy. It's really just a diner. Was quite disappointed at that! but nevertheless the meal was considerably nice. Then we went to wal-mart. bought something s there. I bought Suzie Mcneil's new Album. Currently listening to the songs. they're not bad actually. Quite nice. I'll give it 3***. So tommorow is Big brother show on tv! yah I can't wait to see the spoiler tonight on the internet. okay so right now I gotta go off cos I'm gonna play tennis. It's 8pm right now. The sun is just coming down so I gotta hurry and play before it completely sets!!!

Another day And I realise how I have not a life.

2007-07-30T18:31:00.000-07:00

Some1 just made me realised something. OKay actually it was two ppl. Yah olright I don't have a life. I have completely nothing useful to do. I should really have brought my textbook here to study but instead yah..shipped it here so I'm only gonna get it in round 3 weeks time. Yup it sucks to feel that u are completely useless and that ure just wasting time in ur life. But really...All I can do is let the days pass..until school reopens in FALL that is. Which is about a onth time. Man I must be really dying from boredom. Anyways, I never really go out much these days. I havent explored much of this place.

I know that life has more meaning to it. I know that I'm supposed 2 be shaping my future but really I don't have a clue what I should do or what my future looks like. I could see myself as a journalist who couldnt move on or move up his career lvel. or I could see myself working in as a museum curator. Or an archivist. But what i'd really wanna do was to be a movie critic. I wanted to do somethn tht I could enjoy. and everyone who knows me sure knows that I love movies. Yah that's true. My true passion right now is to be a movie critic for a movie magazine or a newspaper. But you know....journalism comes in second. or even enterpreneurship. yah I might do some business.

Anyways, I think that's enough on contemplating life. Today I did nothing as usual. Just worked a little bit on my math and wished I wouldnt be more stupid thn I already am. lol. And I'm currently reading the chronicles of nArnia. The whole series. Just bought a week ago at a bookstore in the mall. Yah I know the book is for younger ages but I feel attracted to the story! I just wanna finish what I've already read! I've already read 3 of the 7 books. tts y. olright so I think thats all I wanna talk about. right now gonna go to bed. its 11pm here in toronto....

War is peace, Freedom is slavery, ingorance is strength

2007-07-28T08:23:00.000-07:00

I think its time to update my blog so here goes! I've been in Canada for over a month right now and It's still dull. Because there's no school yet. I found a good school near my house tho. It's called "BRONTE College" It seems that school is very very serious and strict. LOL. For example if ure late ure gonna hv to pay a fine of $5...or smth like tt. I really don't see myself being on time all the time in this school! AFter all in Qss there was such a thing as gate late! Okay anyways, recently I finished reading a book called 1984. overall it was great. The concept of the story is just of th box. SOmething creative. This book was also vital in shaping the modern world that we live in right now. The book showed politicians what the world would be like under totalitarian regime. That is quite scary when the slogan reads:" WAR IS PEACE, FREEDOM IS SLAVERY, IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH". This book really teaches me a lot about the principles of life. And not to take our society today for granted. Without a democratic society, we would not be liberal. We would not be free. We would be watched 24/7 under the totalitarian government. That is quite scary huh?

Okay so enough about that. So yesterday I bought the magic cube. You know the one where you have to solve....the COMPLICATED ONE! Alright alright I know I'm not clever//// thats y I can't even solve it. darn it. I know there's a trick or something but I still can't figure it out! How do you put layers of the same colours together when it's all MESSED UP! Anyhow, Lately I've been watching the show Big Brother 8 which is aired in both Canada And the U.S. ANyways, I think it's entertaining. I know what u guys are thinking. "Fiersa! You really have nothing to do is it???" hmmm maybe I don't haha.. Anyways, Mike was evicted from the big brother house this week and it's quite surprising since it was obvious that Kail was big big fat fat liar liar! She was caugt lying so many times on National tv!!! Anyhow that's all I wanna say about Big Brother.

Ritees....so it's now 11.40am in the morning. and my house is gonna get a little bit of a makeover in a bit. They're gonna get some dining table or something... okay so That's all the update I can give u all right now. Hope all of you back in Singapore are enjoying your school days because I'm stuck here all alone without a friend. I know what you all were going to say! "A friend will aways be with you mentally wherever you are". Hahaha. I'm a mind reader now eh? Haha. Okay gdnight to u ppl back in singapore! Enjoy ur weekend while u still can! Don't smoke! Don't drink! Don't have sex! YET. haha. just kidding bb

I'm here all alone. And going cuckoo

2007-07-23T08:37:00.000-07:00

Hey so today I'm reading a book titled "Nineteen Eighty Four" by George Orwell. The author of Animal Farm. Actually, I expected something different from this guy. But I guess I was wrong. The concept of the story was simillar to Animal Farm. so Yah. The story is set in the year 1984 where "Big Brother" is the dictator of Airship One (formerly known as britain). The whole idea of the book is to go against the idea of totalitarianism. Yah so my expectation was nothing like that. I expected something different from ANimal farm.

aNYHow, Yesterday I went out with my faimly to Square One to get some Household items. I got some tennis rackets at the shop and some tennis balls of course. I plan to practise em later on during this long holiday. Yah I know it's been a really long holiday for me. I haven't even touched my text books in such a long time! Yah only been touching up on my general knowledge and genera novel-reading of course. I know that's absolutely useless in maths but that's all I can do since my text books are all being shipped here. They're only gonna come next month. sigh....til then, I have to satisy my self with some books to read and movies to watch. What more when I came home last night, My tv was not working properly. It has only half the channel it was supposed to have. Damn that stupid televison. oKAY so today I'm probably going to snip snip snip my hair off. Yep. It's time to cut em off. Making me uncomfortable! FYI. The weather here is really humid and hot. At times, hotter than Singapore.

Okay so I think I will end this here. But b4 that I just wanna send my regards to all my friends back in singapore. You know I miss you all. So don't make me miss u all more than I already do because it isn't nice to be all alone here just with ur family and absolutely no friend! Yeah I know I'm going cuckoo already. You don't have to remind me of that. Sometimes I just wanna be alone. And so I got what I wanted. All alone. Now u all know why I wanna start school as fast as I can? Find company other than myself. Damn, I guess you have to be careful of what u wish 4. Cos u never know, It might come true. And not be the way you wanted it. sighs........=.="til then....goodday....

Things are different now.

2007-07-19T09:44:00.000-07:00

I've only been in Toronto for a few weeks now. I haven't been around town much. School hasn't start either. So here I am thrusting myself with absolutely nothing to do. I;ve enrolled myself into a private school called SOLA (Schoola of Liberal Arts). It's a pretty small school. There isn't much activity in there. And it only starts on September 4th. I still have about a month and a half to go. Isn't that just a long time away?

Anyways, nothing much has happened. But I can tell it's all different now. For one thing. all my friends are out of touch with me. Most anyways. I seldom see them online because of the 12hour difference. Damn the time zone! By the way, if you've noticed, I've posted a new song on my playlist in Friendster and this blog. It's called "I'm good" bye Tony Laf. I know the "sCOTTY doesn't know anthem is kinda getting into your heads right now. That's why I thought It'd be great for a change. Tony Laf participated in the talent show "Britain's got talent" and reached the semi-final.His vocals is just magical. Man how I envy him.

Anyhow, I'm continuing this post because I connected offline the other day. Today is Sunday. It's a sunday night and I'm currently sitting in the livingroom surfing the net. My family just moved into this aprtment yesterday. The apartment, I have to say, is quite lavished. And it doesn't come at a high price either. At least it's a good deal compared to the prices of renting apartments in Singapore. Besides, this is a serviced apartment which has all the facilities u eer need. There's a 24-hour grocery store down the lobby, a salon, a gift shop, a library down the lobby, a golf course, 2 tennis court and 2 squash courts., and a swimming pool and a gym.

Anyways, no I haven't gotten my haircut and it's growing uncomfortably long. Can you believe it? I despise myown hair now. I think I look like a geek from the 70s with long and wavy hair if I let it grow. IF. And that will never happen! When I was young, I used to think that having a long hair is fun cos we got to play with it all the time. But then....yup. My opinion changed over the years.

In toronto and loving it.

2007-07-04T12:30:00.000-07:00

hey people I'm currently in Toronto and I'm loving the laid back summer days. Hahaha. There's no school here! That's why! Actually it's a bitter sweet without school. It's quite boring but on the good side, you don't have to do anything! Lol! So I'm still staying in the hotel and that's why I can't go msn every day. Only on some days cos the time margin is quite big! 12hours behind@! Okay, to date, I haven't caught the movie, Transformers. A little frustrated here! But I've seen South Park! Credits to Varun's recommendation!

In my hotel room, all I do is watch tv all day. It's wimbledon week still. Tennis action is goin on live on tv. My big heroine is already out of the tournament- Marion Bartoli beat Jelena Jankovic in a thrilling 3 sets. Anyways, Venus Williams got through the Quarter Finals surprisingly. It's her first quarter final since winning the wimbledon in 2005. I'm rooting for her now. As for the men's side, there's almost nothing to be said. It's either going to be Roger vs. Nadal in the final or Roger vs.Roddick. It's almost that clear, you know! I don't see any chance of Djokovic of breaking into this one.

Also, I watched Britain's got talent on the net. Discovered this brilliant six-yearold singer- Connie Talbot. You should really hear her sing! She captured the hearts of tv viewers in Britain with her own rendition of "Somewhere Over the Rainbow". She has become an overnight Child Prodigy/sensation since singing that particular song in the audition. She sang that song again in the finals but unfortunately, she fell in the hands of Paul Potts- an opera singer with unbelievable vocals! Another great singer I discovered today is Tony Laf. He got through the semi-finals fo Britain's got talent but unfortunately didn't make it to the grand finals. I think he is absolutely FANTASTIC. He undoubtedly deserves a record deal with one of the top records company. His original composition- I'm good can now be found in youtube(live). His website is www.tonylaf.com be sure to check him out!

Okay, so enough about the singing thing. 2 days ago I went to the CN tower which is like one of the biggest tourist attraction in Toronto. It's adjacent to the Famous Ontario Lake which is now fully-packed with summer-lovers! Yes It's hot in here but still a bit breezy at times. The CN tower is highly sophisticated and the interior design of the building is awesome. My family went to eat at 360'. It's a rotating restaurant on top of the tower. The food is absolutely delicious! With the combination of breath-taking rotating views of Toronto and of course Ontario Lake, I'm gonna have to say that this one's a big winner. 10/10!!! The best restaurant I've ever been to.

So, today's a little bit rainy but since I haven't been outside all day, I'm gonna have to say that it absolutely doesn't bother me. Currently it's 4 in the afternoon. Gonna log off now. Thanks for reading this. See you whenever I can write.

5-days transit in UK

2007-06-29T14:11:00.000-07:00

Hey there, really haven't got the time to blog these days. I'm currently in Scotland. I'm here on a 5 day transit to Toronto, Ontario, Canada. Tommorow afternoon I'll be leaving to London-heathrow and then Toronto. You know what...I hate London-hEathrow. It's the worst place to be in. You have to go through such stupid security!!....Have to take out my belt and I'm really afraid tt my pants will drop! Hahaha they're 4 sizes too big..all of them. Anyways, The last time I went there, I had to wait so long for the plane. It's been delayed. And the terminal wasn't impressive as well. We had to walk long rounds and the trolley was horrible...The train was okay though, It was probably one of the best things in there...oh and the Business class lounge was good too..thos are the best things in Heathrow. yup. Only those. The shops...well...ok???..

Anyways,I went to Montrose in Scotland on Tuesday for a quick visit and came back to Edinburgh on the night. Montrose has been the same as ever. Ben's band was jamming in his house as usual..Tom was off school for the day(he obviously skipped school). He's currently in a top school I heard. Oh and Joe is well,, jobless? He's just finished High school and now looking for a job.

Anyways, Joe came with us to Edinburgh and the next day we went to Newcastle, England over a 2h 30min car-ride that made me absolutely sick. We had lunch in Aunty Brenda's and went for a quick shopping trip just outside town. Nothing was bought though. Then we went to Uncle Mick's where we met Michael and Phillip and of course Rachel. Haven't seen her in years and I must say she looked different--I think she was surprised with our visit lol. Then we went to Michael's place to meet Aunty Mo. Yup. And we went back to Edinburgh round 7.30pm..By the time I got back, I was too tired...

The next day, we went shopping in town. We went to Princess St. where we found countless shops stretching down the long long street...the walk was a bit dreadful but I have to say that it might be just like Orchard road? Or probably shorter. I don't know cos I'm used to Orchard rd. but nt Princess St. Okay, Princess St. is where I lost 30 pounds. I dropped it on the floor. Unfortunately for me. The money was just given by my mom shortly before I dropped it! Of course she went mad. And of course I've thought of fooling her. Telling her that I spent it on a game or smth. But I thought- hey what good would it do to tell a lie? I certainly wouldn't get anyth off my chest! We stopped by Mcdonald and bought some lunch. By the time we came home, Wimbledon was on. Went on to watch tennis for quite a while. Then I dozed off....

Okay the next day, which is today, We went to The castle which is near Princess St. Edinburgh castle that is. It was majestic I have to say. Maybe not so. But I'm a first-time castle visitor so yeah..I was pretty much overwhelmed by the sight of a centuries-old castle which probably held countless events...I couldn't help but picture the castle centuries ago. But the only thing that came to my mind was war. Pretty much war. yup. So I shut the thought pretty tight and left it like that. We had lunch inside the castle. I have to say, the food was not bad at all. The cake was nice but I couldn't finish it. Then we went on to witness a quick wedding ceremony. It was in public!!! I think it was romantic for a wedding to be held in such a royal place. Okay anyways, we went to visit some other parts of the castle which was undoubtedly majestic and the furnishings were impeccable. I wonder if it looks like this centuries ago. Again, I'm touching that thought. gaahhhh. No war please!!! The thought of war just makes me feel cold and uncomfortable in many ways. But to study it is a different thing. I try to avoid picturing it lol. Just study. Don't need to picture. Okay, so from there, we went to St. James Shopping Centre which was on Princess St. and bought smth to keep us warm in Toronto. lol..the weather must be cold. Even tho it's summer. Cos it is FREAKING COLD here. Okay, maybe sometimes it's warm. But most of the times it's chilly. Herrm...okay so I think I'll stop here. I'll blog again whenever I feel like I could ok00000ayyyy.,

Last post in a few weeks.

2007-06-16T19:23:00.000-07:00

Hey I think this is gonna be my last post in a few weeks cos I'll be moving soon and it will take quite a while to build up a connection there. Especially when we're still looking for house(we'll be staying in a serviced apartment meanwhile, lol).

Anyhow, I went out with Jeevan on Friday, after I took a repeat urin test(the first one failed cos there was too much protein in it.).Hahaha. lame. We watched Pirates of The Carrribean. Again that is. I have to say that watching it the second time, was quite a bore. Yah I know, then what for right?

I feel like I owed my friend a movie treat.Hahaha.

Okay, so before watching movie and after that, we played in the arcade for a while. We spent some money there on a Tennis game. Haixx I reached the gRandfinal only to find myself not being able to defeat the damn opponent!....Anyways, on Saturday it was back to the packing again. This time my mom called in some helpers Crown movers. hahaha. I stayed in my room the whole time...there was almost nothing to do except fooling round on the internet..okay so I watched some movies halfway and stuff...I played a tennis game online and managed to complete it..haha..it was easy but nonetheless, fun. Umm...and I fixed my background for friendster. I think that's gonna be my permanent one since I can't be bothered to create another one and I think it's already almost flawless. The simplicity in the background just captivates me. Oh btw...I created that background myself.I just clicked and copy the photos and blah blah blah. You know the steps...

Okay, so tonight's the big matchES in La Liga. It's the closest fight in such a long time I heard. Who am I supporting? Real Madrid. Sorry Barca. I have nothin against Barca I swear. But I've been a Madrid fan since I was 9...so hahah Barca don't hate me for not supporting you. And as for EPL, I'm glad tt Newcastle got a new Manager. Their [revious manager was a waste of money!!!! Sam Allardye is the man! I hope Giuly from Barcelona comes to Newcastle./.

hmmm hahaha...so what movie is there to watch these days? Lots of movies are coming up. Transformer is one. Nancy drew! I'd love to watch tt! Simpsons the Movie! Goal II! Disturbia! Black Snake Moan! Harry Potter5! lol....I don't really like Harry potter alr. haha.

So I think I'll end it there. Sorry if I don't go online from now on. But believe me, I will find the opportunity to do so. Be it borrow my stepbro's laptop or something...

Almost over

2007-06-08T21:27:00.000-07:00

Yup I changed my main song in my IMEEM playlist. Hope you all like it. Give me a shout out and tell me your opinion on the song "I miss you" by The Summer Obsessions olrite? I just feel like there's a need for a change. The song "Home" is heard too much. Its heard everywhere. I'm actually getting sick of it. haha.

ANyways, I have a couple of weeks left in Singapore and meanwhile, I'd spend as much time in the movie if I could but there doesn't seem to be a movie I could watch...its either I've already seen them or I simply am underage...What a situation huh? I'm currently waiting for the release of Fantastic4. Can barely keep my patience in place. Lol. It's gonna be a huge hit. I think. haha. Pirates of the Carribean was a huge hit itself. I enjoyed the movie pretty much. Alright so other than that, I'm caught up in a mini dilemma. Yup. That's what I'm calling it. I can't decide for myself whether I should get PSP from Singapore or just wait til I reach Canada....hmmm tough choice...

Anyways, the French Open came to an end recently. Justine Henin won the Women's Singles title and Rafael Nadal Won the Men's. I think it was pretty clear as to who was going to win the title Henin received absolutely no challenge to her throne this year. Not even from 2 time champ Serena Williams and rising Serb Stars Ana Ivanovic and Jelena Jankovic. She shrugged them all aside. Nadal also did the same. He didn't really got a fight from Roger Federer. Everyone predicted that Roger was going to face another deficit in the Finals of The French Open lol. It was all so clear you see?..

oKAY So aside from the tennis, my mom asked me to put aside the not so important stuff..and so I threw away a lot of my textbooks. And also some useless encyclopedias. I kept some novels. Only those that really mattered to me. Of course I kept some of my school uniforms as memory. My parents actually confirmed the flight to UK on 24th of June . It's at night. I'll be checking in at 8.30. Lol. You know I still can't get over this stuff. I still can't believe I'm going. Btw that's only going to be for 2 or 3 years? I think I'll be back in 2 years time. yeah. The holiday now is coming to an end for my friends. hahah but for me, I have another 2 months holiday before my school starts. How boring is that? lol...

So today, Monday, I went to Sentosa for an outing with Tyrus and his friends. Danial came along with us. Overall, it was fun. But the sun really burnt us. I think I still have some sunburns...lol I actually didn't swim or play soccer...simply cos I wasn't wearing shorts. I was wearing jeans. I forgot to bring shorts...haha. silly!

We had lunch in Sentosa and eventually went home at 3.30pm. Some of them including Tyrus stayed back at the Chalet but most of us went home. Sean. Danial and I didn't actually go home straight. We walked around Vivo for around 30min or something and I think Danial was windowshopping...lol not surprising. haha. He also wanted to watch Ocean's Thirteen but it was too late. 5.50pm...I didn't feel like watchin. Actually you know what? I felt like spending all my money and jump on to the Star Cruise. It's been a long long time since I've stepped into that luxurious Ship! How Majestic that place was! But of course, I wasn't senseless. I went home straight after that cos I have to say bye to my Grand-aunt who was leaving Singapore today. She left at about 8pm today. I reached home at arounf 5.30..and went to the showers straight. I can't tell you how much of a relief it was to get those sands off my body. It was really itching my body all over lol. Never go to Sentosa with Jeans! tHATS All I can tell you!

ANyways, days before 23rd, I'll be off to Heavy-movie watching. That's my favourite past-time after all. Anyone interested in joining me please do tell me so! And one more thing. If you find that I'm uncontactable, it means that my phone line has been cut off. I will update all of you on my new number. it's going to be for only a few days. After I'm gone, I'll use MSN to resume contact. I'll be online mstly either in the morning(singapore time) or night. Or even all day. hahaha. But not in the afternoon i think. Cos it'll be in the midnight over there. haha. so yah my msn is still gonna be the same lil_bit2edgy4me@hotmail.com

Currently listening to: Wonderfool by Dilana Robichaux, Skin by Suzie Mcneil

Currently on top of my wishlist: PSP

Who I'm thinking of right now: My Grand-aunt who's leaving to Indo now. Gonna miss her!

Movies most recebtly watched: The Messengers(2007)

long long time

2007-06-01T23:59:00.000-07:00

First of all, my deepest apology for not blogging in quite a long time. I simply forgot to. I know it's not an excuse. Anyways, I've noticed that not many people have come to this blog. It's a good thing and it's a bad thing.

For one thing, I could get all my problems off my chest. That's the good thing. Bad thing? I'm not popular? LOL. Popularity stinks. Anyways, my mom said that we're moving on the 24th. That's the latest update I got. I've started throwing away my textbooks and other dispensable stuff. I kept some textbooks with me cos I think they're rather indispensable for my future education.???? huh what am I talking about??? haha

It's the beginning of June and it's also the start of the Frech Open on tv! This time I'm rooting for Hewitt, Jelena Jankovic and actually Serena Williams. Oh I forgot- Novak Djokovic

I think they're great players. Hewitt may be off his time but still, he's a great player. There's something about Federer that made his matches boring...I used to support him tho. Nadal? Getting more infamous for his arrogance. Lol. I actually supported Venus Williams at the beginning of the tournament but she got knocked off by another one of my favs. Jelena Jankovic that is. I think the Final's gonna be Svetlana Kuznetsova and Serena Williams. Men's final? WHo else? Roger Federer and Rafael Nadal. Winner? Roger Federer. and Serena Williams. They both deserve it.

this past weeks I've been trying to work my body off but still havent been successful. I think there's a slight improvement tho. Lol. I have less fats bulging in my stomach. Oh...btw...I watched THE BIGGEST LOSER sometimes on Ch5. Damn...they really lost a lot of weight. This is one show that crown the winning contestant as both the BIGGEST LOSER and THE BIGGEST WINNER. Some of the contestants LOST 110 LBS??? in a few wks...and one geeky girl turn into a pageant queen??? wooo where did that came from??? they didn't even need surgery and stufff they just needed the treadmill and some slimming pills...woooo i mus encourage more of my overweight friends to lose weights! They mus watch the show to get inspired. lol. im being lame sorry haha.

Recently, I've also been a bit obsessed with John Lennon. Hahhaa. His music I mean. Don't get the wrong idea. lol. His music lyrics maybe shallow but still inspiring. He was shot in the year 1977 if I'm not wrong? by his own fan. yup. fanatic that is. He was formerly in the well-known group "Beatles". He has produced many number1 songs with and without the Beatles. He married a Japanese woman known as Yoko Ono. I think they had a son called Julian Lennon? Correct me if I'm wrong. Yoko Ono had a daughter from her previous marriage. Her name is Lisa Ono. She's an incredible Jazz singer. Her voice is simply dynamic-- my dad has John Lennon's album. Greatest hits- compilation that is. It inculde great songs such as Imagine, Love, real love, oh my love, nobody loves you, mother, STAND BY ME, New York City, and many many others---

kk...so what are my problems this days? I dont feel great bout myself. lol. low self-esteem. hahah. that's the only one. Otherwise, my life is quite good. What are the movies I'll be catching these few weeks? Shrek3 Fantastic 4, and many many others. i WANNA SPEND As much time and money on movies! Its my fav thing in the world after all---hahah.

Eyes Wide Opened.

2007-05-17T05:24:00.000-07:00

I don't know. Something clicked. I just felt like I realised everything. It's all so fast. Time flies I guess. Its' May 17th right now. Wow, It only felt like yesterday that I was jumping over with elation over my PSLE results...herrm...

Now I'm in sec3. Whole diff thing. Diff life. Soon, a new dawn will rise. Can't tell you much about it for several important reasons. All I know is that time flies. And I don't know what to begin with...maybe I'll start with some memories I've come across.

Sec1...let me see....what was there in sec1? Jeevan became my best friend. And so did Sumithra and Danial. Back then I had a writting club...it's called the streophonics? Is that right? lol. I forgot haha. Anyways, it was really fun working on the little project. We had weekly meetings and stuff. Of course, a great credit has to be given to Samantha who has moved on to Farfield Meth.

Sec2 holds a little more memory...for the fist time in my life, I had so much friends! Fuck all those people who hated me and cheers to those who befriends me! huh sorry lil crap talking here and there. Anyhow, Sec2 there was Meita, Stella, Helmi, Hun Hag and many others... nice memories...

arrh...enough bout tt,...lol....

dAYS: It's the end.

2007-05-11T03:24:00.000-07:00

As you all know, exams are over. In a way, I feel guilty for not really putting in my maximum efforts. But on the other hand, the stress is over. Time to relax. Sit back and have fun I guess. Today's the last day of exams. After Malay paper, Nicholas Quincy Cheeying and I went to Cathay Cineplex to watch 200pound beauty. Cheeying was ssaying "you emo lah!" to Nicholas all the way. In way yah he was. Very quiet....

ANyways, the movie was good. I didn't say great cos it was quite predictable. But it has some funny scenes. Which I gladly compared to reality: Lim Soo Ling. Hahaha. So funny. I bought a large popcorn and finished it almost without the help of Nick. Standard lah.

Before going t Cathay we went to Plaza to eat. There, Nicholas Cheeying and Quincy was laughing for dunno what reason. Any reason to laugh will do I guess. I just followed along. Burger King was nice but I dunno y after eating the burger I don't feel well. Maybe its just the guilt of not doing well in exams and celebrating. Yah, it wa sprobably because of that. There's nothing to celebrate about anyways. I did horrible and thats a fact.

I guess I'll have to comment on yesterday's American Idol Result Show. Lakisha was voted out as you all know. I was a bit shocked. But not really lah. I knew America Was racist. Lakisha could clearly sing much better than BlAKE lah. She deserved his spot in the Final 3. I think that Blake is overdoing it. His performances are so technical and boring.He tried to do the R&B thing but doesn't work for me. Phil was much better actually. But then again, its on LOOKS. I bet Melinda's gone next. Its so sad that a talent show has turned into a nightmare beauty pageant. lol. so infuriating.

Bleh...I don't know what happen to my friendster profile lah. Friendster is so wrecked lah. I really prefer Myspace but sadly no one in the East uses it.

errrm. hOls are coming. And do I have any plans? I guess I'm going jamming? lol. maybe so. I think I'll watch Pirates of the Carribean too. oh and I'm going to the UK i guess. for some kind of a family reunion. To be honest with you. I feel awkward in UK. There's just something cold about it. Obviously it might be the weather. But its also the...people round it. it's kinda hostile? Man, I really don't want to make an understatement but I really feel awkward and out of place there. Maybe I;ve been in the Heartland for way too long. I don't know. It's just not Home you know. I feel so alone even though one part of my family is there. blah...never min about that. I was just talking rubbish.

So i guess I'll be off watching a good show now. Its called Little Miss Sunshine. NC16 though. LMAO!

Rocky Waves

2007-05-05T00:12:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's Geog and Lit exam. I think I fared poorly. Do you ever get that feeling where you know you can do so much better? And yet, you fared poorly? That was what I felt! I really did study for the exam but somehow I got a mental block on that day..

I think Ms Latifah's gonna be really disappointed. I didn't even get to finish the paper. I was really disappointed. But I didn't let myself drown in the ocean of disappointments. I know that If I keep this spirit, I'm never gonna make it for the History paper on Monday. I believe that everything happened for a reason. Maybe this is my wake up call? Haha. Btw I'm so over it lah. I don't wanna grumble too much over the past. What's already been done is done. I learnt from my mistakes and that's it. That's the whole point. For me to learn. Monday's gonna be the Pure History paper. I'm gonna be doing something on Southeast Asia. We get to choose our topic. And I'll choose Southeast Asia for this topic.

I think I'm gonna be working lots this weekend. Have tuition tomorow morning. Tonight I'm gonna do some SEQ. Just some practice. And of course do my tuition hw. oh yah, Monday is the Amazing Race Finale. I hope Charla and Mirna wins. They've come so far and it's a pity if they lose it. This week, on American Idol, Chris and Phil were elliminated. There's only one guy standing on the stage. Hahah. Blake. The rest are Lakisha, Jordin and Melinda. They really swept away all the guys. haha Amzing. herrm. I think shall not blog too much today. Exams...

Save me from the dark skies above me!!! =(

2007-04-29T04:09:00.000-07:00

I'm currently addicted to one particular song! It's an Indo song. It's actually a soundtrack from a movie. It's really moving! Lol! Really damn addicted to it. Today's been a bore. Had tuition from 10 to 12am. Then, did my homeworks. I was really rusty today. I don't know why I really forget all the formulas for the damn coordinate geometry. Really disappointed about that. Exam is just few days away and look how rusty I am!

Well, serves me right, right? I haven't been practising much this year. Haven't been working hard. Friday's gonna be Lit paper. I give up! At leats for this term. There's no way I culd score for that paper! At the very most, I'd get a pass. Oh- I heard there's gonna be a field trip to go watch a play? Off-centre. That's it. Yeah Off-centre. I don't know where and when though., Have to pay ourselves! Not fair! we're the one taking Pure Lit not them!

Today studied a few things. E maths, Malay and A maths. Now I'm gonna go on to studying for SS and Chem.

If I were to pass with good marks, I've gotta work extra hard at everything. Especially A maths! If I don't start picking up things tommorow, it'll all be over. Hahah. I have till tommorow to change my fucking attitude.Herrm. Pretty nice. Failure seems inevitable. Will I snatch victory out of my opponents's jaw? haha. Remains to be seen.

Herrm...currently listening to some good music. Pretty much Indonesian songs. My current fav band? Smile Empty Soul, My Chemical Romance, Plain White Tees, Saving Jane, Nidji, Breaking Benjamin, Secondhand Serenade and many others.

Ben asked us all to watch Spiderman 3 on 1st March. Don't know iF i'M going or not. Remember? I need to study. haha. got that people? yes, I study. hmmm...ont he other hand, a little refreshement won't hurt! mm...have I got anything else to say? Don't think so. Hahaha.

See you all nex time.

Poverty

2007-04-24T15:45:00.000-07:00

Poverty

Do you know that half the world- nearly 3 billion people, live on a mere US$2 a day? Poverty is currently a huge and important issue in this world. It happens in many parts of the world, even in Europe, where most of the wealthiest countries are located. As you can infer, poverty knows no boundaries. Anyone could be hit. Anyone could be driven into bankruptcy and thus, into the state of poverty.

What comes to your mind when the word poverty rings in your ear? In my case, I would picture those little sad faces of starving kids in Africa, beggars on the street of Jakarta and even homeless people in Europe, digging for food in a trashcan. Then, I would picture the daily lives of these human beings. To be honest, I am not even certain if I could last a day without food or water! All these made me realize how much I have taken food, water and other necessities for granted. Forget about money and proper housing. Those are nothing compared to the basic necessities of life. We need food and water to survive and clothes to keep us warm. What happens when we are deprived of all these necessities of life? We are plunged into the deep, dark and hollow world of poverty.

Poverty happens for numerous amounts of reasons. One of them is the lack of materials or resources in the area. For example, the lack of forest resources or water sources may result in the state of poverty, as the people living in the area will find difficulties satisfying their needs. In developing countries, around 1.1 billion people have limited access to water. The climate is also a huge factor. If an area is infertile or too dry, the people will not be able to grow crops on the land or herd animals, thus resulting in the lack of food resources. Another huge factor that leads to the state of poverty is the mismanagement of a nation. When the government of a nation is corrupted, the people will often find their needs unmet and thus, fall into the state of poverty. For example, in the late 1990s, there was a crisis in Indonesia’s economy as a result of the government being corrupted. Indonesia’s economy fell drastically. Prices of oil and other essential materials rose and apparently many people were unhappy with the situation.

Now we will take a look at the state of poverty in the United States of America. The state of poverty in the United States of America differs from the others. The people there have not actually reached the crisis level. The government actually set up a poverty line to single out the people who are falling under the poverty category. Poverty in the United States of America refers to whose annual family income is less than “the poverty line”. The percentage of the population positioned below the poverty line is currently 12%. However, there have been arguments about America’s “Poverty Line”. It is said that the “Poverty Line” is set too high. This might be true. How do we know? Most of the people living in poverty in the United States could still afford to buy food or clothing. Only some of them are actually homeless. Even then, these homeless people could find their way to survive on their own. They could sleep in parks and get their food from leftovers in restaurants or cafes. You will often find these people digging through the trashcans in public places. Overall, the state of poverty in the United States of America is very light compared to the state of poverty in many developing nations.

Now we will take a look at the state of poverty in Africa. Have you ever been to the African Continent? I myself have never been there but based on what I have learnt, most of the people there are living in a harsh condition. More specifically, they are living in poverty. According to statistics, 34 out of 50 nations in the UN list of least developed countries are located in the African continent though currently, the poorest nation in the world is Timor Leste. In most nations in Africa, the per capita income is less than US$200 per year. That means most of the people there earns no more than US$0.50 a day. Do you think that amount could get you through the day? What about parents with huge families? Do you think their earnings would be enough to feed their children? Absolutely not. Forget about their future and think about the present. If they cannot get through the present, there will be no future.

Why do nations in Africa experience poverty? There are many factors that lead to poverty in Africa. One of them is the loss of traditional way of obtaining food. Before the Europeans came to Africa, the people there had their own way of obtaining food. These methods include foraging, hunting, herding ad subsistence farming. When the Europeans came, a new set of policies and constitutions followed. These policies greatly modified the Africans’ method of obtaining food. This shows that the Europeans played a part in Africa’s current condition.

Another factor that led to Africa’s current condition is the misuse of money. Over the years, the world has lent a helping hand to Africa in many ways. The most important way is of course, financially. Over US$500 billion has been sent to Africa as direct aid. However this money were not put into good use. For example, some developing nations made use of these money to purchase guns to protect themselves instead of providing the young with education, build new shelters, houses and creating more jobs for the people. Another good example is how Ghana used the money to build the Akosomo Dam to provide electricity for the extraction of aluminium from bauxite. The project was a huge one and the result turned out to be disappointing. The grade of the Ghanaian ores proved to be too low and now, the dam is only used to process ores imported from other nations. This was apparently a big and devastating blow to Ghana’s economy.

What does poverty leads to? It would lead to starvation, diseases, deaths,child labour and the lack of education. This is a fact but most of us have forgotten that people in the state of poverty are also in a state of desperation. They would do anything just to gain what they need. Even crime. For example in the United States of America, poverty is commonly linked to the rising crime rates over the past few years. While the state of poverty in America is not so bad, some people in Africa are forced into executing criminal acts in order to survive. Some of these people joined secret societies that “promise” to aid them financially. Others would consider prostitution as a solution to their financial problems. For example, In Thailand, many poor peasants actually entered the prostitution industry to support their families back in their villages or hometowns. Some would even go overseas just to “strive” in the prostitution industry. In most countries however, prostitution is illegal. Moreover, poverty also leads to diseases and illnesses. The environment in a poverty-hit area is far from clean. Hence, the spread of diseases. Some of the common diseases or illnesses are malaria, Cholera, HIV, Gonorrhea and other sexually transmitted diseases. Although some of these diseases are curable, most people in developing nations cannot afford the high cost of treatment. In the Sub-Saharan African, around 24.5 million people were living with Aids by the end 2005. In that year alone, around 2.7 million people have been infected with HIV. How do these people contract HIV? You have to remember that most of the people in Africa are uneducated. Hence, they are oblivious to the current issue- HIV/Aids. The antiretroviral drug is used to delay the progression of HIV to Aids. However, as I have pointed out before, most people in Africa are too poor to afford this treatment. Hence, they would not be able to live a normal live once they are contracted with the virus. Another huge impact of poverty is none other than starvation. This is because starvation itself will eventually lead to death. According to UNICEF, 30000 children die each day due to poverty. 16000 of these children die of starvation. This means that for every 5 seconds that pass by, a child will die of hunger-related issues. The rate of education on young children has also gone down the hill as more children each year are out of education due to poverty. Currently, 121 million children worldwide are out of education. Poverty also leads to the child-labouring industry. Each year, around 200,000 child slaves are sold in Africa alone. Why are these children forced to work? They do not really have a choice. They are either sold by their parents or simply taken away as their parents are unable to pay their debts. Child labour is a persistent issue in this world. Although child labour has been banned in almost all countries, it still goes on secretly in some rural areas. As you can see, poverty leads to many things. Some huge issues that we are currently facing are actually associated with poverty. On the whole, the effects of poverty are absolutely devastating.

Poverty takes place in many parts of the world. In this world, it is utterly impossible for each and every one of us to be a millionaire. The idea of being equal has commonly been brought up by great thinkers. An example of such great thinkers is Karl Marx. He was the man who brought up the idea of Communist Government in Russia in the early 20th century. This would then lead to a Russian Revolution. Firstly, what is the idea of communism? Communism is the practice of being absolutely equal. Did Karl Marx’s idea worked? Many people think that it was a failure though the lives of farmers and other peasants became better. Why is this so? Let us look at it this way. In a communist nation, a farmer will earn as much money as a businessman or a politician. A minor worker gets the same pay as a major and important worker. Do you think that the system really showed equality? What makes you think that there would not be a corruption of power and money? So, on the whole, Karl’s idea was a failure. The topic ‘communism’ strongly relates to poverty because the purpose of communism is to better the lives of people living under harsh conditions. It is to bring them up to the same level as the rest of the world.

If it is impossible to make this world equal, then how do we solve Poverty? Although it is impossible to wipe out poverty from this world in an instant, we could work gradually to improve the lives of the people living in agonizing conditions and at the same time, reducing poverty. Poverty would only be reduced if all of us living put or hearts together and help the poor break through the state of poverty. Through charities and non-profit organizations, we could lend a helping hand to those in need. Examples of such organizations are the Poor People’s Economic Human Rights Campaign and Global Solidatory Network. Moreover, many countries are actually providing African nations with direct aid. The government themselves are the most important parties in this case. They have to take the initiative to do something in order to improve the people’s lives. For example, with the direct aid given, they could subsidize housings, education, healthcare and create more jobs for the people. The government should also built a shelter to accommodate the homeless people roaming on the streets or rural areas. They cannot afford to make the wrong decisions for their people who are in desperate need of help.

Fighting poverty is not an easy task. However, we have learnt that poverty has devastating impacts. Hence, we have to help each other in order to gradually eradicate poverty so as to improve the lives of our brothers and sisters living in this world.

Pure History: A challenge, A deadly one.

2007-04-24T05:34:00.000-07:00

Today's pretty much shit. I can't keep uo with the Pure History. Damn. And really am worried about my mid-year exam. Especially for Pure History,SS and Malay.

Today English lesson we did summary writting. I did badly I guess? Caouldn't be bothered. Had many things on my mind. I know. Excuses right? Next, we had Biology. We copied down the answer from the previous experiment. I didn't actually manage the previoux experiment cause my group was too slow.

Next, It was Malay. Huzaini brought a whole bunch of chocolate. Have to say that he have some common sense. After all, the whole class helped him out on his way to winning the trophy..so its a class effort. After that, we had E maths. Ms Lim spent 1 period on going thru the worksheet frm the previous day. The lesson was okay. I could rather understand it. Vera went home early. These few days she looked sick?..And then it was the E maths test. One major mistake here. I did a careless mistake right at the end. If not for that, it would have been full marks. Wasted man!

Then we had 2 periods of History. Here comes the bad part. I didn't do my homework. Cause simply I didn't know how to do it. Honestly! I know I should have tried harder but then again, I did try. And I would rather spend my time studying E maths and revising A maths. So it was a weird thing for me. Sure, Mr Siah would think I'm slacking but that's his opinion. I did try my best.- just didn't know how to answer the damn SEQ. While he explained all the answers on the board, I was wondering what he was writting. My specs actually broke this morning so I couldn't see anything at all. And most of the times, I moved up. And I grabbed Yuh Kae's usual place- Beside Nicholas Tay that is. Hhahaha. LOL. Today Gabi laughed a lot about Yuh kAe and other stuff lol. No offends to Yuh Kae! Yuh Kae relax ok??

After school had to stay back for A maths group study. I actually worked hard during the 2 period. Understood the question well. Then after the remedial, Aryani came to my class to ask me accompany her to see principal for some personal reasons lol. She say she don't dare to see him alone. Haha. Lol? VP not around and so was mdm lim. both gone dunno where. So have to come back tommorow. So, I went upstairs to spend some time in the library. I ended up joining Iok Kam, Lee Ching and Shunan for A maths group study. We went a step further in studying! When the sch library closed, we proceeded to Mcd. StudieD A maths there til rund 6.45pm then I went home cos it was late and I need to fix my specs. Went to the specs shop in Orchard and my mum called me to come home. Hahaha it was only 7.30 for god's sake. So I went home and here I am. 9pm. Gonna finish my essays now. And then resume my study on A maths.

So that's all for today-.-

Geog Debate and the near encounter with WAC

2007-04-23T02:40:00.000-07:00

...Almost got WAC for the 1st time of my life. Luckily today there's Chem lesson. Hence Ms Latifah actually cancelled the fucked up WAC. It's not like I intentionally forget to do the hw. I really just rmb it this morning at 5.30am. By then it was too late? And I did the hw a bit.

So that was what happened in Geog class. In Chem class? We got back our Chem test results. Satisfying enough for me. I expected to fail lol. Got 25.5/39 instead. Geog class was fun today. We had a debate on which side does deforestation affect the most- Human or Environment. I became the judge and Hafiz was talking crap while Wenky shot his own team dead on the spot- by summarizing Against his own team(LOL WHAT AN IDIOT). hahahha just kiddin k Wenky-

Then it was Malay. Did Formal letter again today. What's the point of doing all these when she doesn' return our work and let us know our mistake? Btw, it's too little too late to do practice now. It's the 11th hour! She expect us to study at a fucking last minute.

Then after school I went to Mac to study for 1hr in Mac. To be more precise, I did my homeworks down there cause I knew I wouldn't do it at home. Went home at 3.30 cos the sky was getting darker and indeed, it did rain. I used my umbrella and took my time walking down the street of Orchard Road. Walking in the rain is actually quite fun. And cooling. Except you might get a cold. haha- I get frquent colds.

And Here I am. At home, blogging all these stuff. And now I'm gonna go on to revising for my E maths test tmr. As usualy target is- 75. Hahah. Praying for the best. Reach not for the less. Hahah.

Turistas

2007-04-21T20:34:00.000-07:00

WokeN up at 9.30am this morning by Danial's sms. He asked me to come to his house for group study. I said I'll see what I can do.

Weather's quite fine today. Ate my breakfast as usual and watched a television programme. I guess it's a new programme. It's called "three wishes". It's a rip-off of "Extreme Makeover:Home Edition" and all that stuff. Bu I liked it better than the rest. The show's quite inspirational if you watched it closely.

And so, what am I going to do today? Write a 1500 word essay on Poverty. Yeah I know it's crazy. Tell me about it. Have to finish it by tommorow morning. And it's mugging time. Exam is this Thursday and can you believe it? I haven't prepare a single damn shit on my Malay. Considering the fact that we did absolute shit in Malay class. I mean, come on! The lesson was pointless all the way.. Could have fared better under Mdm Roslina.

Btw, that essay that I'm supposed to write is actually a group work. Should've been a group work. Let me see, so far they helped me on the researched and I'm really sorry that they couldn't make it for a meeting. That's all. Yeah. The rest are thrust upon me. I managed to write 500 words so far. That's quite bad actually. Have to hustle!

And so I think I haven't done my E maths and A maths work. So many things to do you see? And I haven't gotten the chance to catch a movie on the big screen this week. I only watched a movie on my com. It's called Turistas. Really good Horror. It's about a group of tourists who were stranded on a rural area in Brazil. The film were mostly shot in the jungle. It was a really good movie cause the suspense is really over the top and the vicious killings just get more brutal with every scenes! The most brutal part is when the crazy doctor performed an operation on one of the tourist. He opened her stomach with a scissor and took away her heart, liver and kidney. Those organs were to be given to the "needy" people in Brazil. If you've watched this movie, you'll never ever wanna party in a rural are again!

So I guess that's all from me today.

Bag of potato Chips and a diet coke.

2007-04-20T16:44:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's a special day. The birthday of Hitler! Yeah I know sounds pretty f**** up. And no I don't celebrate it but still, its a special day. -And these few weeks I've learned much more about him. Not only did I find out the shocking truth that he's a fag. It's in the latest book. The Hidden Hitler. And I guess mid-year's coming. It's really coming. And I'm really dead terrified of taking my Litearature paper. Just look at this. I only had 2 weeks to study and prepare for the whole lit exam! (I only took lit recently).

Yesterday's the same whole thing. School's been a bit boring. In the morning, there was the commemoration of the International Friendship day. It was Japan's and Australia's turn. Pretty much like Australia's national anthem. Sounds different from others. Next, it was English. And it was 2 period of pointless lesson. I'll keep my mouth shut for now.

Then it was History. I guess I had a lot of catching up to do. Every history lesson is important to me. It was a lesson on The Rise of Hitler. We watched Hitler: The Rise of Evil for a few minutes. The ending part that is. It's a ery interesting movie. Liked it much. Before the lesson started, Mr Siah was quite furious at Wenky for acting like a Nazi and commemorate The Birthday of Hitler. He told us of how Hitler killed so many Jews in the concentration camp in an agonising way. How he hated a specific race just because they are who they are. Jews. Gypsies. Homosexuals. Well, what can I say? He, himself was a homosexual. LOL

Then it was PE. Been working quite hard this week. I didn't wanna be left out of the Track and Field team, that's why. We were punished because Iok Kam and Jia Wan didn't bring their PE attire. Wasn't shocked. Anyways, it wasn't anything big as a punishment. Just 3 extra rounds. I rain and only stopped thrice. Ended up 1st. Hahahah.

Then it was Mother tounge. Kartini spent the whole period celebrating Huzaini's win. Quite fun I guess. Then it was assembly. Some Indian Cultural performance. It was good but really tiring. Maybe they could cut it short. I don't know maybe the heat had some effect on us, Audience. Tell you what, it was really a hot day. I don't think th fan was really working. Damn, What is working in our school?

So then I went to Mosque and after that grabbed a bag of potato crisp and a diet coke for my lunch. Then I went back to school for History remedial. It was a fun remedial. Varun blabbered most of the times. And I pity him because he;s the odd one out in that class. He's the only one that came from 304. The rest from 301. Thus, he was singled out. The topic was on answering Structured Essay Questions. Wahhhh there's so much things to write in exam! I don't know if I can memorise them all.

Speaking bout exam, I'm quite worried of my A maths and E maths. I failed my latest Logarithm test. by 1 mark. damn. Unlucky day. The remdial lasted for 1 1/2 hr. Then I went home.

And I watched some movies. Hahaha. The movie Long Weekend is quite good. And did some research for my current project. Essay writting that is. On Poverty. One of the biggest issues in this world. hmm...so I guess that's enough from me. Thanks for reading this and continue to read my posts. =)

just a little bit of something..

2007-03-14T23:10:00.000-07:00

All these time,
Kept it buried inside;
forgive me if these words don't rhyme,
cause I just don't feel right;
can't explain why,
don't know how.

Maybe it's time to surrender,
let it go and find it's way.
Maybe it's time to forget,
but I'm not sure if I can.

God showed me the way to move on,
somehow I don't get it all;
dropped in the past,
i CAn't seem to move on.

So maybe I shouldn't,
Maybe I should;
Believe me I don't know,
where to go from here.

These has been
a few and awkward lines.

rants...

2007-03-14T09:02:00.000-07:00

Wanna guess what the heck I'm doing in the middle of the night? I just did my Geography assignments. I know it's insane. The due time for the information given is at 11.55pm. Completely insane. Against all odds, I did it. Completed it.

So, I guess life's been going really fast. Only now have I realised it. Felt like it was yesterday that I got my PSLE results. And now, haha, Sec3. What am I talking about? Life, of course. It's always been about life. Perhaps I haven't really figured out what's life to me. Or wHat's my life supposed to be like.

I'm not even sure if I wanna know now. Maybe I should let time flow. And let my life take over me. Maybe I shouldn't have control over my life. Get what I mean? Like for a second you vow to be a track star. The next year you're the boy in the rock band. So you vow to be a rock star, the next year you decide to take on Literature. Or Arts. Or whatever bulshiz you might wanna call it. It's just going into very different directions for me. Maybe it's just my life. I have no control over it.

Why am I ranting about all these bulshaz in the middle of the night? Because life to me is everything. Once I blew it, its gone. I can't change things. I can't make things the way I want it to be. I can change the future. But I can't rectify my mistakes in the past. Neither can I change my path in life(in the past). Take my track life as an example. It's pretty much over the way I see it. I pretty much gave it all up for my rock band Smack of The Stereo and of course my studies. Maybe I regret doing so, maybe not. I think i do regret. It's a little too late to make a good comeback now.

So I guess thAT's all I wanna grunt about....

Today's so whatever

2007-03-13T20:29:00.000-07:00

I think I'm supposed to be out on the streets today, roaming around. Yup, hanging out with friends. Unfortunately my friends couldn't make it. So whatever you know. Staying at home as usual. Doing the best I could

I guess this is life you know. You don't get to enjoy every single second of it. This holiday has been too stuck-up for me. I'm actually lucky, considering the fact that I don't even have to come back to school for any extra lessons.

So what's going on huh? I guess nothing. Life has been as we knew it. There's some assignments left for me to complete during this short break and I haven't done it all. So much for an over-achiever.

Yeah, I guess I'm slacking behind. I've recently bought the literature book, Heartland. It's for my Pure literature in school. Well, what can I say? It's a well written book. It fits to be our school's text book. At least I guess.

So, the sky's not really shiny today. Maybe weather's not good either. I can't really tell. Maybe I'll go for a swim later. Maybe not. I can't really tell. So what's with this new blog? Why not the old one? Because the old one's not working pretty well. I hope this one does.

So, maybe it's time for me to complete whatever assignments is there for me. So I guess I'll catch up later.

2nd post!!!~@!~

2007-03-12T22:47:00.000-07:00

Hi.. it's probably been a long time since I've posted a journal. I haven't really used this one. I'm using more of the Friendster and blogger.Anyways, life has changed a bit this year. I guess there's more of what you call pressure now that I'm in Sec 3 or in year9. Up to what you wanna call it. Sure, sometimes I feel the steam burning out of me. But I'm really not a quitter. I had a choice whether to take on the pressure or not, and well, I chose to take on the pressure and the challenge. I've taken 8 subjects this year. Pure Literature, Pure History, Additional Mathematics, Elective Geography, Elementary Mathematics, Social Studies, English(I'm in band 2) and well, what do you expect? Science.

That's combined Science. You probably won't understand the system here cause it's a bit of a mess and it's extremely complicated.I have some other blogs too. So be sure you come visit it. These are some of them. www.whats-in-the-past.blogspot.com That's my history blog. As for my other blogs, well, they're under construction. But you can check this one out too. www.friendster.com/freak89

Well, currently I've been catching up on my personal entertainment! That will be watching tv and stuff. I've been watchin Heroes in particular. I think the show's a classic. It's totally awesome and you will never get bored watching it! Yep, it's true! One of the main character is Hayden Panettiere who plays Calire Bennet. She is an orphan who recently discovered that she is invincible and indestructible. By that, I mean that she cannot be killed. She has the power to heal herself. Isn't that amazing? I tell you what, she's drop-dead gorgeous. Not only will I get to wATch her actions in Heroes, I'll get to see her in pom-poms and short skirts. Well, I mean uhm uhm... Hahha.

Let's move one to another topic.I've also been watching American Idol and Amazing race. I know, reality shows. What else if not all the publicity and dramaz? I know that it's getting a little cranky but still, it's got the vibe. You know what I mean? It just kept me glued to the television. This year, a contestant in American Idol posed semi-nude in the internet. Well, what do you expect? Drama. Her name's Antonella Barba. My friend's actually addicted to her. I don't know why though. She's not exactly pretty to me and her voice is just awful. Thankfully, she got booted out just last week. I think America did the right thing.

And as for Amazing race, I guess my favourites are Charla and Mirna this time around. I know they're getting more bitchy with every season but hey, I feel for charla. haha. Okay, so what happened this week? Rob & Amber got elliminated in Argentina cause they missed a flight. Well, all I'm gonna say is that they deserved it. Not only did they tricked Charla and Mirna, they also made fun of them in front of all the other racers. They lied to them twice! I know, I know, it's just a fucking competition but still, where's your courtesy and integrity? I gues they don't even care about that huh? Well, yah I gues they deserved getting PHILLIMINATED.So I think that will mark the end of my post. Til then, I'm off.

ps- sorry I ripped this off my livejournal posts. so it's a little bit weird. ahah.

Testing

2007-03-12T22:31:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps, i think this is my theird blog. Just testing here. I wanna see if my posts work.